i just got home from a fun night at eurics house. it was his parent's anniv and their house blessing. kami pa, we always find excuses to drink haha, pati house blessing pinatulan amp! haha. well, it was real fun, i just have to say, we suck at karaoke!

i really thought that my mom wouldnt allow me to go since we also got this big ass party here at home, so i asked my friends to go inside so she couldnt say no na, plus i asked her during panic time, para di na siya nakapag-isip haha.

gosh, its new year na! i dont feel it. whats wrong with me? its like i dont feel nuthin no more. i didnt feel christmas and now new year? is this how it is when you get old, some things just naturally arent that special anymore? oh, crud. i wish i wish i wish with all my heart that 2006 is a better year. 2005 wasnt that much. its was fine, nothing great. i want to have a year when its all great its not even funny anymore. yknow what i mean??

i finally finished sophie's world thank god!! now, i have to read a study case on manila prince hoter. sucks. but you gotta do what you gotta do....

happy new year everyone!!! dont make new year resolutions anymore, they neva come tru!

sophie's effin world!

this book im reading for school really sucks!!! its SOPHIE'S WORLD. and its the hardest effin book i have had to read!!! it has taken me more than a week and im barely more than half!!! it is so boring! so right now, im in panic mode coz i need to write a paper by jan 2. yes, its awful, school starts and jan 2 na! so much to do...

i just got back from mae mae's house. so fun just to chill. all i can say is I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!! ciao

these days

tonight caps off 3 days straight of partying...

1st day was my BIRTHDAY! i loved it!! its seriously the coolest party, as in, you cant imagine!... haha, stories of that night will be told more efficiently by word of mouth. and i loved everybody who came, seriously, it was intimate, just us. thank you mom, for making the night so, uhhhmmm, interesting. I AM OFFICIALY AND IRREVOCABLY 19!

2nd day. 4D REUNION... i wasnt really planning to go but its a good thing i did. it turned out to be really really fun. thank you aids, you know for what. and millard, haha, man you were so wasted. keep that up!

3rd day. DINNER AT MATT'S. its the first of what would be an annual christmas dinners. the food was heaven and the company was even better. i am just so damn lucky to have friends like you guys, i swurr!

MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone! i really dont feel it yet. im still waiting for it to bang me on the head, but i guess you have to just go with the christmas spirit even if it aint there. imagine, this day is what you have been waiting for the whole year and it goes by just like that. *snap*... so for all you guys, i wish all the love this merry season of christmas!!

today is the day

today is my BIRTHDAY!.... waaaaah! im nineteen!! i gotta go, coz im prepping for my party...

its lookin up

something good happened.. i dont wanna jinx it. i just hope im not stupid enough to not recongnize a good thing when it comes to me... im kinda scared, ok not really scared but apprehensive about the whole thing. im just not used to 'really good guys', yknow? coz there sure aint a lot of them lately... not that all the guys i know are jerks but they sure as hell aint that good. oh, joy... i think that i should just revel in the good things that are thrown my way. and not wish for sumn else.. yeah, thats what im gonna do. and if doesnt work out.. at least i got a new friend. sigh.

hey! my birthdays comin up!.. im turning 19! daym. i just wanna spend it with my fam and my closest friends. so, i hope you guys show up, aight?! merry xmas everyone, have the best one ever! muchoz.

i met some hotties

fckin embarassing man! we danced kalipay in front of tons people and i screwed up big time! seriously, i was like, wait, how come im facing front while the others werent? oh shiet! But it was all good, since nahabol pa naman. so it was a good one for indayog. well, except for my big boo boo.

oh man, i have just seen the hottest guys on earth. i still cant get over it. yknow the philz is like the 6th place in the world hip hop championships (or sumn like that) right? one of them is our choreographer. so invited us to watch them in Rob. oh fck. they were soooo goood. as in, there are no words. i seriously thought i danced pretty well, but after i saw them i realized i dont know shyt... Reagan (our choreo) introduced us to his group mates. lawrence is so hot. he's chinito, and he dances so well. and Jong, he's even hotter. he looks like justin timberlake, wlang stir. grabe!!! ayayayayay, im star struck!

oh yeah, SCHOOL SUCKS! Good things its over. i hate it!

shiver

its cold and im shivering.

im in need of warmth.

but i wont find it in your arms coz someone else

has taken my place...

effin painful...

im gonna get mine someday.

and when i do, its gonna be helluh good.

life is screwed up, so you gotta screw it back.

dilemma

what do you do when a guy tells you he wants to kiss you?...

and he's drunk.... you know how they say that when theyre drunk what they say is true coz theyve

lost their inhibitions. so is that true??

i guess the answer to the first question would be you kiss him if you like him...

but what if you dont? not that way at least. (i dont)

uhhh! i really cant force myself to like someone. but when i love someone,

i just do.

its cold

its christmas.it dont feel like it.
...awwww

so, i dont have gifts for my family yet.. for my friends meron na... sobrang last day shopping panic kaya for the fam. kasi naman, sobrang hectic na... i gotz so much to do.

people, people, watch our dance concert on JAN. 14 k? its gon be at Philam life, UN. Ave. were barely starting the preparations now. the word being barely. for my batch, were gonna have a production number. and we only got 4 8s so far. gosh. and we still dont got our costumes designed and our music mixed. help,i desperately need help!

awww... so sad, i dont have a boy this christmas....uhhhh!! haha. nah, its all good. i have my friends.. haha. yes, yes, micha tell yourself that.

oh yea. so effin stressed. my birthdays cumin up and i still have no plans. hay, im gonna end up not doin anything.. and i think thats just so freakin pathetic. yknow? coz bdays suck when ur older, its just but another ordinary day... so i feel like i have to do something, go out at least.

thats it so far. merry christmas peeps. i hope you guys have a good one. muchozmahalz.

the layout

I gotz a new layout...aint it cute??

i just wanna be happy-----> v.5 the hottest this season

i just got home, yeah, im tired as hell coz there were so many people in the mall. i hate it when there are a lot of people, i swear. i wanna scream at them at them and tell them to not touch me! uhh, i know, major biyatch.. haha, oh, well. cant do anything about it. i had to wear heelz to go to the mall coz my asked me to coz we were supposed to go to a 'binyag'. bummer. it turns out, we dint go. me and my sis decided to go shopping instead, so they left us in the mall... daym, all that walking made my feet hurt. so i bought flipz. yeah, i know, flipz again. you can never have too much shoes. its my sis's, SABU, 16th birthday on tues.. so im excited for her. i think she's just gonna treat her friends to a movie. thats all she wants to do. me, i wanna have a party. such a spoiled brat talaga. haha. kidding. okay, thats all, ciao!!

maybe life really sucks. maybe we have to

stop wishing for something better and just

piece together all the good times and make for

ourselves a happy life. maybe, all we can ask

for is to just get through this thing called life.

im tired of being bothered by the whole sad thing. im gonna be happy...

this is what occupies my time when im not in class. i dance. i started out thinking this was just to pass my time. but no, these people became my friends. not only that, now, they are my FAMILY.so, recently we had an outing/ charlie's bday celeb! it was so fun, i tell you that now. we overused the karaoke machine, i swear i havent sung so many songs in my life! in fairness, ang raming magaling kumanta sa indayog ha! except me ofcorz..sad. we got so smashed, okay fine,I
got so smashed. pero mas matibay pa rin ako kay xeng noh!!! haha.
i wuznt the one crying... lolz. sobra sarap ng indayog, walang maarte
pag sinabing sayaw, lahat sayaw!.. duh. dance varsity nga e..and then the more than friendship, we're
next day, we played kiddie games. daym, we are such dorks! at first, i was family....
thinking of ditching the outing coz it was my friend's bday. HAPPY BDAY CARL!.. but good thing i didnt, i wouldve missed half my life..awww.

thanks SIR JOEY for such a great great time. and thankyou for being more than an adviser and more than a friend. thanks for being our DADDY!

so. class has officialy started. i say, this 2 weeks after the ''official' start of the 2nd sem. well, it aint my fault. UP sucks. LATE REG SUCKS! anyway, i cant get over the fact that my econ 101 teacher is so effin pretty. haha, gez im just not that used to seeing beauty queen teachers. i hope she aint all face, i wanna learn dammit. yes naman. for this sem, i also got a rockstar teacher for polsci.he's the guitarist of sugarfree. k fine, im not sure if he's considered a rock star, but wtf?! he certainly lives up to what he is coz he dint show up for our 9-12 class. i wouldnt be bothered by it, except that i woke up early for that class and then hes not gonna show up?! hell no.

so. while waiting, we took pictures. i know, i know. im vain. but who cares?!

i am hoping with all my heart that this sem goes better than ever. so far, so good.

par le vouz francais?

so... my mom arrived yesterday. and it has been nonstop talk about her trip to Paris. omg! i am so freakin jealous. she talked about what they did there and what they ate and what they saw and what they smelled.. (she says the french dont take a bath so they kinda stink) hehe. and i grilled her about every little detail.

so here are some of the things that i remember:
she went to the LOUVRE and she saw the MONA LISA. so, jealous! its only like the most famous painting in the whole wide world. i was thinking that all that hoopla about her smile was overrated and she said, no, she really is mocking you.

she saw this painting of a boy crying coz his mom died and my mom said that the picture was so damn good she felt like she could touch the boy's tears. and it was really a painting about death.

they stayed at the champs elysee (i fuckin dont know the spelling!) and the shopping was soo hott! all the designer labels were lined up there and of course, she had to get herself some louis vuitton! (she bought it for a friend, argh!)

the men are so fucking hot! they all are. even the fucking cab drivers who drive mercedes benzes are hot! and since africa is so close already there really are a lot of intermarriages and daym, those mixed breed kids are so damn byootiful! they got white skin and big dark eyes and big lips. or they got black skin with green eyes and blond hair. dang, why couldnt i have been french?! JE SUI SHWAN (have no idea if the spelling is right) but it means IM HOT! french is courtesy of mz janice lam!

theres to much to share. haha. so i wont na lang. hehe. basta, im so jealous, i wanna go there! i swear, i will go there before i die. i have to! i might just live there when im older. and i have now found my new fantasay nationality: HOT FRENCH MAMA! haha.... enough dreamin, ciao!

tygre, dude i gotta say im not as brave as i thought. haha. im an effin coward man! i know, i know, last night, you know? what i wuz talking about, i cant do it. after thinking about it, i cant do it and its drivin me crazy.

if you dont got an idea what im talking about, read up.

found out this dude lied straight to mah face when i asked him about a lil' sumn sumn. its not a big deal that he lied really. coz, gurls, we all know that guys do that right? im just wonderin why he did it. and what are his motives behind it. im scared, coz i seriously dont wanna look stupid. he might be playing something and im sure im gonna fall for it. coz im gullible like that. big effin sigh right here.

i wuz talking to my friend last night and i was telling her that i would ask this dude about it. but i dont think i can. coz you know, this thing called pride is doing its thang. and i dont wanna throw it all away for nuthinm yknow? no biggie, if im throwin it for sumn worth it, but it might just blow up in mah face, and we dont want that right?! so im stressin over this. but i gez, when it all comes down to it. i'l just have to ask him about it. hurts bein a gurl.

the crew all decked out for CREAM: micha, kat, anil, lia, carlo, mel, martin, euric. we missin katy, bea& hannah tho.

we had so much fun preparin. i know i know, im such a bizatch, my costumes hanging pa talga. haha, gotta lose the big tum tum tho! haha. but whatever! we all hott like that! *snap*

as usual i cant sleep. this cant sleep thing is getting so stressful seriously. its driving me nuts. stress na toh, gagz.

just came home from a party at eurics house, it was erlaines bday. too bad, she got so smashed, she slept thru the rest of her party. we felt so old haha. since erlaine and her batchmates are like 2 or 3 years younger than us. its all good tho, coz we are where the party is at. roll call: me, anil, kat, bea, katy, mamz, euric, carlo, hannah and mike. oohhh, i forgot janice. im so glad that bitch showed up again after such a long time of not seeing her. i missed her so much... what happened in eurics house stays in eurics house. or else we damned haha!! fun fun fun times! this one is for keeps seriously. we trying to make the most of the rest of the break since school starts in a few days. im glad tho that im free tuesdays and fridays, i only got one class. 11:00-1:30, funky right? that means i get to hang out with my friends from lasalle...ohh, excited.

we were so smashed talaga. especially mel, you know shes beyond smashed if she talks in her own language na noh! hahaha! that biyatch. i loves her. and i am so happy for her and carlo! KISSES TO YOU BOTH, MY DEARS.

my mom is coming home from france tom. i swear, the whole time she was there i just got one 1 minute call from her. she called just to say, "anak, earn some money so you can go here, its hella nice" haha! safe trip mother dearest. ciao!

CS AKO!

shyt man! i just checked out my grades.. and i am so effin good man! HAHA, pardon the pride.. wait, who cares?!

here are my grades:
pol sci 14- 1.00
humanities 2- 1.50
modern jazz (p.e)- 1.50
natural science 4- 1.50
communications 3- 1.75
social science 2- 1.25
economics 11- 1.25
-----------------------------
GWA- 1.375

gotta get some sleep.

friday: i went to visit my friends in Lasalle. too bad, they dont got no break,while i have a whole month. shout out to anil, melody, carlo, kat, katy, bea, hannah, martin. it wuz FUN just hanging out. it was my first time there in the greenplace. uhh, its very ghetto. hahafun, they hang out there for hours. theres nothing like that in my school, sad. we have like 3stalls of food there. thats why i dont hang out in our caf.
i left my sis in rob manila. well, she said that she wanted to go shopping alone. so i left her.she wuz fine, then we went home and watched zoro 2 with my brothers. fuckin long and dragging man. fine, but not that good. verdict? P75 out of P120.


saturday: TODAY IS CREAM. we decided to go in costume. kasi nainggit kami last year, we were just wearinnormal clothes. haha, so this year we went all out. we went in partners. me & euric: cheerleader and footballer. (haha, we dint realize the whole team would be there) anil & kat: hades and annata (the earth goddess?) mamz & bea: the hott pimp and ho. (mamz, ur so hot talaga) lia & katie: the devil and slutty angel. hannah & her boy, mike: beach bums. finally, mel & carlo: hot nurse and e.r surgeon. (naks, carlo, very fitting)
bummer to wait for the party to get goin tho. eh, naexcite kami eh, so ang aga namin haha. its wuz so funto get ready, that was half the fun in itself. since ang aga namin, we waited in the parking lot, in our costumes mind you. and the wholesome religious families there were like, what the hell is wrong with thesekids? is that how the kids are now?! haha. it wuz all fun and good until...

katys bag got lost and in it were eurics car keys. no ones fault, some people are just fuckers, really.what the fuck man, theyre that poor they got to steal? howd they get in in the first place?! (entrance is so effin expensive)so we were lookin for it and we were panickin na. actually, euric was panicking. i wuz so tired to panick so i wuz justmajorly bummed. me and euric waited outside to guard his car coz someone might steal it. mamz, so sweetz, went with us. lia was with usbecause she wuz so buzzed she was seein double haha. on the way back to moonwalk to look for eurics sparekeys, he realized he had one in his pocket. damn, i know!...we got home in one piece.


sunday: SWIMMIN IN BATANGAS. i got home around 5 am. we left for batangas at 8am. i wuz so tiredand sleepy, it wuznt funny. i slept with my contacts on pa talaga coz i forgot to take it out the night before, so the wholeday i couldnt take out my shades. which is fine, since i looked hot. haha. during the trip to and from lipa, i was deadto the world. swimmin was so fun. the place was byootiful! the people werent tho. damn, dont understand why somepeople gotta wear shirt and shorts while swimmin. thats so fuckin ghetto (not in a nice way). ewWWW, SO LAME.


that was my loong weekend.
HI MOTHER! HAVE FUN IN FRANCE!

i just gotta say this. BUMMIN SEASON STARTS NOW!

i gotz no classes no more. school is officialy over. officialy being i had the last of my exams. so, i just got to practice and present our play for humanities 1 and submit this damn research for pol sci class. i seriously have nothing to do but sleep, eat... basically bum around. usually, this is the time that i update all my blog layouts and shyt but dude, i still dont got my pc. suck big time.

im sad coz i keep thinking about this time last year. i hung out with my bestfriend meanne, who is now in the states. we were like out clubbing or sumthing practically 2x a week for a month or so. we were like mainstays absinthe. haha. well, embassy dint exist yet.. not that ive been to embassy yet. haha. yeah, there, so since we were there all the time people got familiar already and i ended up goin out with this dude. well, thats another story for another time. haha. cutie pie with a funky accent! oh, those days are gone. darn it.

people people, please support the u.p. manila indayog dance varsity, we got this competition for penshoppe this saturday, is that the 8th?... anyhu at sm manila. be there puhleeze..

laterz...

shouldve been posted last sept 24. but wasnt, so deal with it. ..... lolz.

lemme tell you about the week that was�. We had our P.E. finals on Monday and I swear we had minimal preparation. But it turned out pretty fine, since we were the only modern jazz class we werent included in the competition so we were just like the special number. So sabi namin, since la naman kami kalaban, kami kami nalang ang magsapawan. Hahaha!!! I was laughing my head off while dancing coz I really thought na nagkakalat kami but a lot of people said that our presentation was so nice. So cheers to me and sherri and dinno and all the modern class peepz!!! We did great you guys!!!!

Tuesday was so uneventful. Wednesday� we woke up hella early coz we went to cubao to have our natsci video edited. Shout out to AMOS. Thanks a bunch for editing our thang. So, of course, we were late for our 1-4 soc sci II class. As usual, dang it, im always late!! Oh well. And then on Thursday, we had to go back to cubao to finish it. And we left skul at 530 and I got back to my dorm around 1130 pm!! Talk about freakin dedication! But all is well since I have the vcd already and its really nice. Id have to say, it was all worth it, I don't wanna jinx it tho, since we havent presented it to the class yet. We had like 90 mins material and we only need 20 mins� yeah, were camera hogs. Fine, IM A CAMERA HOG. Oh, vanity. I seriously think I would be a good actress haha. Since I love the limelight! Haha. Other than my love for dancing, why do think I was a cheerleader in highschool and dance varsity in college huh?! Lolz.

Friday, was so uneventful it hurts. Oh, joy.

Today is my grandmothers bday. I miss her sooooo much. She died when I was 8 years old, and I have to admit I was pretty young to remember stuff but all the same, I knew who she was. I feel so sad for my brothers coz they dint get to meet my lola. But good for them they have their lola chit. Me, she was my real grandmother and I miss her so much. On the cheesier side of things, I feel so alone in a way, my lola's dead, my lolo passed away 2 years ago, I technically don't have a father so its basically me. But before you get all sympathetic and shyt, Im good. I have my mom and sabu, sachi, chase and tito dinno. And its all good. �

Oh yeah, I had my extempo. And it couldve been an impromptu coz I just adlibbed all I said. I was just standing there while talking coz I was talking about something sad and I wanna detach myself from the audience and I dint want them to be distracted with my walking and sutff coz I wanted them to focus on my voice and just feel what I was saying.. and I thought I did pretty good job since everyone was intently listening but after, my prof. Said that I shouldve been more conversational. And I was like fuck it, I dint wanna be freakin conversational. So whatever. Okay, I gotta run, next week is jammed packed., I got econ exam on mon. comm and natsci on Thursday. And hopefully, im goin out tonight. So, I gotz to Study study study!!! Pray for me ok??

im currently watching nonstop cheering compet... yeah. i dont know if u.p is good or not. coz there wasnt no hightlights. oh yeah, i know how hard their floor routine is... the one with the headstand and the baby freeze and plunge and stuff. trust me its hard. fudge, ang galing ng ust!!! betccchhhhhhhh!!! i want u.p to win for a change!!! argh!! disappointment...

forgive me for not being able to update for the past weeks... thats coz i still havent gotten my pc back yet. bummer i know. darn it! my mom keeps on forgetting to get it from the one who fixed it.. and i cant change the damn layout coz its saved in my hard drive. yeah, i cant express my creativity here in a laptop.

anyhu, school has been alright, if anything else it has gotten more boring. im kinda looking forward to the sem break, coz officially i only got 2 weeks of school left.cool right?! yeah, well, thats U.P.

i think i just watched the season ender of LAGUNA BEACH... dang, stephen is so f-i-n-e. i absolutely adore him.. im kinda ok with kristin already but noo.... not that much. haha. stephen is mine, OKAY, crazy talk again.

it has been raining cats and dogs.. dont get me wrong i love the rain, but it is getting a tad to annoying! seriously, who wants to get their pants all splotched with dirty water, and get their feet wet, especially in effin padre faura, man it is so DIRTY there!!! but the nights are just to die for. its so cold, its perfect. KINDA hard getting up tho haha. as usual, im late for my first class for everyday. i missed this 20 point quiz in hum1, just because im late, dang it, that couldve been an easy 20 perfect. uhh!!! oh yeah, on fridays, i usually walk to school with my friend MARK, i dont know his last name, but he's the cute one. he was formerly bio, shifted to orgcom. so, every friday we kinda run into each other at rob coz were both lazy asses and were always late for class, so we walk to school together. but awww, i dint see him today tho. but no biggie, umuulan ng malakas, wa-poise mag lakad sa ganun noh, haha, baka madulas pa ko! haha.

FINALLY, we finished shooting our natsci project and were gonna start editing next week, im so excited to see the outcome! its a docu about pasig river and we shot in manila, katipunan, upm, and just everywhere, even in the lrt. we totally just shot anywhere we wanted and we totally dint care na bawal pala. haha, face value lang yan!!! har har..

im getting really good at driving... yeah. i cant wait to get a student permit so i can drive around the metro cz it would be totally pathetic if i just continue to drive around my village. but it looks like, its gonna take a long time to get one since i have tons of things to do for school. when i get my license, i wish my mom would let me drive to school already,...or not.. im not willing to give up dorming. i just really wanna drive myself to parties so i dont hafta depend on my friends picking me up or someone driving me there, but if i drive, that means i cant get uber wasted,,, thats aight.

i totally missed hanging out with my blockmates TIM, MAJO AND NIC. seriously, its been a long time since our block 3 days, haha. okay fine, i know we have econ11 2x a week but chillen is different. we were hanging out at the caf (the boys with me, nadz,sher) and it was raining really hard, but we were just hanging and it was sooo fun!!! awwww...kakamiss!!! i wonder whats gonna happen next sem! i wish i have cutie blockmates haha!

i cant wait to go back to my clubbin days. right now, im lovin just chillen at home, but im soo ready to hit the clubs again, so friends, just holla!!

oh yeah, CHEERING COMPETITION IN CSA is coming up on sept 23. and i sooo wanna watch, some of my indayog friends wanna go too but i have
NASTY feeling that i have an exam. DAMMIT!!! I swear you guys should see how much cheering means to Augustinians. its the highlight of our year and pagpapatayan namin yan noh.. and i ve got to say that JUNIORS O3 AND ZENIORS 04 IS THE BEST BATCH EVER! BACK TO BACK CHAMPIONS!!!

this is blog haywire already. later

I just watched THE LONGEST YARD and I luved it. I suggest you guys watch this.. its really one big laugh, not hihi laugh but bwahahaha!!! I hung out with my sis and her friens JO & IYA. Yeah, hanging with the kids….lolz. they aint kids! Theyre freakin bigger than I am haha. I wuz kinda bummed coz I wanted to watch the truth about love.. it’s a jeniffer love Hewitt flick, and since her IF ONLY was a hit, I wuz thinking that maybe this one is too… I don’t know whether it is, imma have to watch it pa… but thank God, they made me watch the longest yard! It was so freakin hilarious!! Loves it.. id watch it again. Its worth 110 pesos ou of 110 pesos. Coolie.

Ive got this econ exam on thurs and I so don’t remember our lesson. Pressure toh noh, since I know, If I don’t get a high score, NIC is not gonna let me hear the end of it. Uhh!!! So I at least have to get a higher score than him!!! F*ckin a!!

my brothers bday is cumn up.. its on september first and he's turning 6!!! happy bday SACHI!!! i think he's havin a party in CSA on thurs and then he's having one at home on saturday. bummer, coz i wanna go to his school but i have my econ exam. so i gez i will just see him on sat, thats if, i dont got training. oh shit, my body is gonna hurt again!!

this was on sunday

Okay… today.. was my first ever driving lesson.. okay maybe not my first. But the first one I was able to move more than 5 meters haha! And not A1 driving lessons but ‘Step-dad’ driving lessons.. so I had to endure my step dad yelling at me stuff I couldn’t understand haha! But in fairness, I know how na ha. Except of course for technicalities like parking and reverse but all in all I can move. Yeah, big feat providing our car is automatic. Sigh. I don’t even have to step on the gas to move…

So funny. I was asking him if I should turn and my step dad was like ‘kaliwa ka diyan’ and I was like, omg! Omg! Whats kaliwa?! Big sigh right here. I don’t know what kaliwa is.. don’t take it against me though, I still have a hard time figuring out whats right and left. Oh, joy.

So im pretty excited with the driving stuff. Hopefully, In no time, I can drive in the metro already… and pretty soon, I can get my license na. Its not like the rents are gonna let me bring the car to school noh. And im not sure I want to.. right now, im loving the dorm thing so if I get a car, imma have to give that up. Hello, im always late na nga now and I live 2 blocks away, what pa kaya kung malayo diba?! I just wanna drive myself to gimmicks and parties yknow?

Okay.. I heard bad stuff again.. sum people (not worth mentioning who) are bitchin about me and the way I talk and the way I am and what I say and all those otha shyt. And usually, I get bothered. But now, im kinda like, wtf?! Im so tired of dealing with their mess yknow? Think whatever you want of me. I don’t even know you so I wont give a s***! Of course I care about what my friends think of me.. but that care doesn’t extend to effin’ strangers!! Who the hell cares what they think right?! All I know is, I don’t do bad things and I try to be nice to everyone and I look good while doing it.. haha, kidding. So its all dandy!

I still cant upload my pics and I cant even use the net coz my pc is busted right now. The cpu is in the shop and my mom keeps on forgetting to get it.. argh! So now, my pc is hooked to a laptop… awww, I miss my songs na…
Im totally hating my layout right now.. its freakin botherin me, but I cant fix it since its saved in the hard drive.. so all you folks out there, please bear with it for a while… okay I gotta go. Later

okay..i gotta freakin hurry coz im late for my class. i just popped in to say my layout is effin' disturbing maN!! im seriously gonna change it when i get back at home.. oh yeah. im back in manila... suck yeah. its all back to normal. imma tell you about what happened during my vacation as soon as i have time. laterz

vaca!

before anything else.. my layout sucks... imma change it back to my old one until the new layout comes to me.. hay.

right at this moment. im in ormoc, leyte. yes friends, im in no man's land. haha. well, im here coz its my uncle's bday yesterday.HAPPY BDAY UNCLE JUN! i was here since sat and imma be back on tues. but we're hittin cebu first before goin back home. its just me and my mom since my sibs got classes... and they arent as free as me! suckers haha!!! well, its been fun, weve been goin around nonstop since yesterday.. and we swam! sumthin i wasnt able to do in manila... deng, this place is nice. boring but its good for a vaca. there aint too much effin people!! and dammit, there aint no malls either. but its all good since im here to visit the fam...

were suppose to be in cebu by now, but we decided to stay over anotha night, then just hit cebu tom am.. then its back to my so called life in manila.. dang!!! i gotta catch up with a lot of stuff. i have this stupid paper to do for soc sci and its due on wed, but who cares, i choose vacation over school! uhh, no brainer!

#%@ man! ive been piggin out. sobrang nonstop lamon since i got here! i gez il just go back to starvin when i get back to civilization..

i gotta go, my moms gonna pick me up na and im so tired, we've been out the whole day. later!

starstruck

this one goes down in the history books. I watched ESKAPO 3:PASADO in UPM. There were a lot of bands playing like HALE, CUESHE, CHICOSCI, SOAPDISH, PROTEIN SHAKE, LOCKJAW JULIE, and a lot more. I seriously didnt know these other bands existed but what the heck, HALE WAS THERE!!

Okay.. so I braved the stormy weather for this, oh,joy! I had to endure wet feet coz I was wearing my FLIPS just to get to the damn venue. Thank GOD, it stopped raining by the time the concert started. So it started around 6 and ended with HALE at 11 pm. Yeah, I was fuckin there the whole time! So.. CUESHE was good. They put on a good show, the ‘fatter’ dude, JAY, is surprisingly cuter than the other vocalist, whom I dont know then name of. But, he’s stil cute and hello noh, kahit medj ‘unfortunate lookin’ ka basta magalingkang kumanta hott ka na rin…oh, the side effects of music. I never heard of LOCKJAW JULIE, their lead is JULIA Clarete.. yah, they were good, coz sobrang galing mag live ni JULIA. Plus, she was hott, so she was a sure hit with the guys. Hehe.. sobrang CRUSH ko yung guitarist ng CHICOSCI. Im not really a rocker so ive just heard these bands on TV but I havent really heard their music. Anyway, I love this guy (I dont know his name) but he is so fckin hot! Help me lord!! Daym!!

FINALLY, HALE played. I had my friend’s notebook raised up in the air and written on it was ‘CHAMP UR SO HOT!’ yeah, considering, I was within holding and spitting distance, he surely saw the sign and smiled! He fucking smiled at me man. My friend told me that a lot of girls were like wondering who he smiled at.. well, it was ME, SORRY GIRLS! HAHA. Theyre not so good at live shows since they sound exactly like they do on the radio but they were hot and that was enough. Seriously, Im not really a HALE FAN, I just went with the flow and screamed my lungs out coz all the girls were doing that haha. Did I say I was super in front? As in, I was the first person after the stage. So… I felt that their basist SHELDON, was kinda offended kasi I had a UR SO HOT CHAMP sign while I dint have anything for him.. haha. Im crazy, I know, but I was right in front of him so I felt that I had to make a sign for him too. So I made a ‘SHELDON GALING MO’ sign and he was actually shy when he saw it. Yeah. And his girlfriend was staring knives at me since she could see me from backstage. Oh hunny, he’s all yours haha! And then I had my ‘posters’ signed. Champ signed thanks on the ur so hot sign. Haha.. I seriously cant believe I watched them live na. Okay, here I go again, starstruck!!! Haha



so that was my Friday. My Saturday was quite interesting also, though nothing beats my Friday. Haha. I woke up early again, 9 am is already so early for a nocturnal creature like me yknow?! We went to RIZAL SPORTS something, I think its COMPLEX. It was the first time I went to an orange training on Saturday, and they so werent kidding when they said and HIRAP! YEAH, the freaking warm up makes you so warm you wanna cry, but its all good. Its all for my craft. Naks, craft daw oh haha! They taught the SIMPLE THINGS dance and its so nice. So galing grabe!! Ang sarap sayawin!! And then we had lunch at this japanese resto called TOKYU haha. Yeah, im serious. Its good food for a cheap price, 15% off on weekends pa! They have california maki for only P90, 14 pcs! OH DIBA, SAN KA PA?! So fun talga to hang out with the INDAYOG. We are truly a FAMILY!!! NAKS haha, seryoso, I dont know what I would be doing if I wasnt with them.

And then my friend EVE KATALBAS picked up her sis in CSA so I hitched a ride with her goin to the mall but not before I visited my old ALMA MATER. It was so nostalgic to be there in CSA again. I loves that place so much., its where I spent around 12 years of my life. And its where I got this nasty way of thinking haha!! The school was as nice as ever, hello compared to the shitty buildings of UP haha! And the would-be theater is so nic. May glass dome shyt pa nalalaman yung CSA ha! HAHA!

And then I passed by the mall and went around for a while before I went home. My mom was out when I got home coz she was playing MAHJONG! HAHA. Anyway, i watched BEWITCHED with mah fam.. it was cute but it wasnt that nice… so there. That was 3 days of my crazy life…

o yeah, I finished reading the 6th book of HARRY POTTER and sobrang naiyak ako! Grabe!! Im so sad, dumbledores dead!!! AaaargggghH!!!it cant be… but I have a feeling na may loophole yan about SNAPE. And sobrang na touch ako kasi sila ron and hermione were there talaga to help harry.. awww. True friendship.. something so elusive.

I was so excited to write down this bloggitty-blog but I dint have time to coz I was swamped with school work plus when I went home, my freak-o computer has a stupid virus! Wtf! It wont even turn on! DAYUM!!!
Any hu, lemme tell you about the week that was…..

THURSDAY
1. our report for comm3 went well.. hello ako kaya ang powerpoint.. of course maganda yun noh!!! Haha… shout out to CONCEP for doing such a great job!
2. RIVERMAYA & SESSION ROAD CONCERT. Yeah, they said Rico Blanco was hot and he gives a good live show.. but I dint watch coz I finished my stupid Humanities paper which was due Friday. (it was given like a month ago but I started it 2 days before the deadline, yeah, lazy ass, I know!)
**by the way, Indayog danced for the opening act so I just watched them then I left na… I saw VJ NICOLE FONACIER AND JOHN JOE.. they were the hosts since it was the MTV CAMPUS TOUR.. anyhu, I technically knew NICOLE coz she’s an alumni of CSA.. and she hosted the Bb. Csa that I was in… so I went up to her and I practically screamed NICOLE! At her.. and she was like, oh! Kilala kita ha! And I was like, yeah, im from CSA, from Bb. Csa and she was like, yeah, yeah, thats why your so familiar.. haha la lang, I just feel so happy that she at least remembers my pretty face, lol! And then she introduced me to JOHN JOE who said hi back naman to me.. I dont like him that much coz I think he’s boring but whatever right?!

FRIDAY
1. I woke up hella early just for MODERN JAZZ classes. Daym, that aint right! So I was traipsing around our ugly classroom try’na do pirouettes and shyt. In fairness, I wasnt that bad haha! Id like to think I was pretty good. Lol! Friend, INDAYOG ako, kakahiya naman kung di ko magawa yun diba??
2. I had all my printing done at the super cheap ALVA! (print: P3/PG) I printed my Humanities paper and printed the POL SCI STATEMENT I did. O yeah, just recently my prof. Said that that thing I wrote was publishable in the Manila COLLEGIAN.. could this be the start of my writing career? Haha! HELL NO! I AINT NO TIBAK!
3. I had my hum class
4. I went to INDAYOG training were I learned SIMPLE THINGS
5. we went to the concert…. See next blog =)

The rainy season is upon us. I love the cold weather and I love the fact that I can just hole up in my bed with a cup of Hershey’s French Vanilla and read HARRY POTTER!!… Shout out to RENZIE, my new found friend haha… so this is the story, I was hanging out in the Indayog studio and there were these Bio students… I saw the book and I was like, kanino to? Can I read it for a while and she was like, yeah sure.. and I was like… uhhh, can I borrow it and she said yes! And I was like YAY!!!… I so don’t wanna spend 1500 just for a book.. yeah, kuripot ako!.. ive read all the H.P. books a million times but I don’t even have one of the books.. yeah, the power of borrowing and the power of my beautiful smile.. ahem ahem! Lolz. Im not quite done with the book though, okay.. im still less than half way.. eh kasi naman , I have this thing called school! yeah, I got exams and tons of things to do, so I can just catch up with my reading during dinner (my only meal of the day) and before I go to sleep (in the wee hours of the a.m)

So I came by this quote.. actually my sister was the one who shared it with me. it goes: “THE UGLIER THE TRUTH, THE TRUER THE FRIEND.” It was said by some king in the story of Camelot. So true right?! Coz only true friends stick with your ugly ass in times of shiet… amen!! Haha… so being the crazy biyatch that I am, I was making other versions of it. this is what I came up with: “the uglier you are, the truer your friends”, “the uglier the friend, the uglier the truth”… haha. funny!!!

I had to make this statement for Pol Sci. its suppose to state the stand of the Pol Sci Majors in UPM, and our stand is for the ouster of Gloria.. okay fine, I never was a ‘tibak’ (activists to you all) and I wont be. But heck, im not blind and im not stupid. I know the shyt that goes on in our country and some things just aint right, yknow? So although, it was with a half-heart that I wrote the statement, it turned out to be pretty good, Just a little edit here and there with some grammatical errors hehe, hello, give me credit, I did the damn thing at 11pm! So yeah, im just waiting for MAJO to make it more ‘tibak-friendly’ and its ready for printing and signing… oh well, what I’ll do for a decent grade.
I am so looking forward to Friday night! HALE AND CUESHE and some other bands are playing at our school! I am so excited to see CHAMP!!. He’s so hott! I recently just got a copy of their c.d. (okay fine, I had the damn thing burned) but nevertheless, I loves their songs. I particularly like ‘run away’ and this ‘blue sky’ thing… fine, I don’t know the titles.. im not good with titles eh. But the songs are nice and that’s what matters. Im so funny.. Im walking around singing to myself and I don’t even know the words and most of the time, Im out of tune.. but what the heck. To each his own, guys. Okay, its past 12, I have to wake up at 7 tom. I need to sleep.

sleepy

i am such an idiot. my eyes hurt already and i am so soo ready to sleep but im still doin this shyt, im posting blogs and answering surveys on friendster. what a dork. i dont know why, but i cant seem to stop. help!

i gotta say sorry to mel, i wasnt able to go to JOYCE'S despidida party. (she's going to beijing as an exchange student for 1 sem) i have to say i find that so cool. wait, does that mean that a chinese girl gets to live with your family?! i gez it does. thats so fun... i love to travel unfortunately, theres thing thing called school thats hindering me from going.. oh, joy.

i gotta bitch this out. HOLYSHIT my groupmates suck man. i seriously dont know why all the work falls on my shoulders but it often does. its not like i volunteer to do all work. i just want things done in a certain way and i guess i you want it done your way, you gotta do it yourself. bummer.

do you think the layout is so distracting? i love the surfer girl tho..

uhhhhhhh again

everybody has their moments. and mine isnt now. absolutely nothing that is worth getting excited over has happened. okay maybe there is... i was walking in school and then someone from this tambayan (which i thnk is full of cuties) called my name. now, im not sure if one of the guys really called me but i heard my name and so i turned around and when i did, all of them were looking at me. so i assume it was them... but since i dont 'know' anyone from there i just continued to walk on... kay, it wasnt that interesting, but i gez that has to do. oh well, thats pretty much my life right now. home, school, home, school, the eventual malling, school... and it goes on. i have no night life. oh,joy.

my friends have abandoned me. haha. not really, but i havent seen them in ages. thats what happens when this thing called COLLEGE happens to you. you promise to meet up every month and promise to never forget each other but the truth is you get caught up with things you think are important. of course you dont forget but sometimes you dont remember anymore. that sucks.

im really trying to be a C.S. just for the heck of it. coz i know that i can do it. so i juz wanna do it, there. and plus, hopefully i get a prize. thats the thing with being intelligent, you dont have motivation anymore, nothings a challenge. yeah, i know, im a BITCH, dont mind my rantings, im just crazy. haha. okay, i need rest.

uhhhhh

Im tired!… yeah, this has been another tiring week.. Im always panicking haha! we were in charge of selling U.P. shirts as our fundraiser and manual labor na toh tsong, but its always a good feeling if you sell a shirt!! Oh yeah, one time, there was this cute guy who was gonna buy a shirt and he asked for my name.. awww haha!.. I have been so stressed about our comm3 project! We couldn’t find anyone who would transfer a v8 tape to vcd.. we already looked all over the ugly Pedro Gil and still we couldn’t find anything.. im so effin stressed man!.. I had to go to greenbelt to have it transferred pa. And to think, this aint my job. Im not the secretary or the president of our group and yet im doin all the work, fuck man, im seriously telling my prof that my groupmates dint do shyt.. I so don’t care if they get pissed at me… hey, I was born a bizatch, so don’t mess with me mofckrs!! Ya hear me?! classes were suspended today.. I don’t know why, sumthin about bad weather.. oh well, its all good. No classes is always a good thing. So while waiting for my project to be done, I just went around the mall and shopped.. yeah, im broker than broke again haha, but its okei since I got myself new flips and a new top! Yey!!! I’m so excited to go to cebu with my mom… its our lil vacation in the middle of the rainy season haha! weird ryt?! I sooooo hope that I can go, coz I have a feeling that imma have my pol sci exam on a mon and were not due back till Tuesday… so … y’all pray for me now. mmmkay??… yeah.. thats pretty much my week..man, im such a dork already!! career ang academics ko!! I wanna be a C.S (it means college scholar and thas deans lister to you guys) coz I wanna ask for a priZe from my mom haha! well, there is a reason why I am a genius yknow?! Oh yeah, I saw GABBY BUENCAMINO and this other dude from CSA whose name I don’t know, sorry…I was in the mrt and I passed by them.. so we just said hi to each other! Haha!… later y’all..kisses!

new layout

holla everyone! i made myself a new layout.. coz im tired of the old one and its about time, i change it!! i just love the surfin picture... it makes me wanna surf, tho i dont know shyt about it... im not so happy with it tho coz i wanna fix my tagboard, but i dont know how... them nerds out there, you betta teach me! mmkay?!

happy bday MEANNE

Hey hey hey!!! Its my gurl, MEANNE’S, birthday! She just turned 18 on june 25th.. so yall people who havent greeted her yet, do so soon aight?! I got her linked so you just press her name, mmkay?

Damn, I miss her so freakin much man. I miss all our crazy days, and I just miss plain old goin out. Dayum, I feel so disconnected with the world, I haven’t gone on a night out for like a month now!!! how sad is that?! coz I have been working my brains out!.. I have been staying in my dorm till Saturday for weeks now so I feel that I should just spend my weekend with my fam yknow? Yeah, well, im a good gurl! Haha!


We danced our ethnic dance today in school… yeah, yeah, I said ethnic! The dance is really hott tho…we did such a good job! Im so PROUD of you guys!! SHOUT OUT TO: kuya raine, ate hoops, tinay, achi, zheela, marie, mac, dinno and kuya roel! Its such a great thing, yknow, to be able to dance in front of people. Coz that’s why you train and train and train yourself so youll be ready to face people. Its just amazing how much work goes into a few minutes of dancing. And the nerves! Gosh, I was so nervous before we started, but as soon as you step into that stage and the glaring light hits you, all your inhibitions are lost. And you just dance your HEART out no matter what. I loovesss it!

over

Cant live without you. cant breathe without you. I dream about you. honestly tell me that its over. Cause if the world is spinning and im still livin it wont be right if were not in it together. tell me that its over.

my feet hurt already

HOLLER! Today was totally great! I got up so early (that’s about 11 am for me) coz my mom said we were gonna go out. So me and my 2 bros and sabu, my sis, went to the mall to just hang out and go shopping! I bought a new top from TERRANOVA.. its peach-y and it has like stringy stringy stuff. haha, what a description. And my mom bought her much awaited boxing gloves, cause she wanted to get really really nice ones, coz before we were using ones that kinda felt weird… Im so tired of eating at fastfoods, I swurr! Bcoz of my bros, we always end up eating at KFC. Hay! So today, my mom was like, lets try letting them eat at Tokyo Tokyo, so we did. And they liked it… I just hope we don’t eat at that place everytime we go out. And then my mom had the four of us (me, sab, sachi, chase) take a picture for picture card… and the girl/boy =gay operating it thought that me and my mom and sabu were just sisters. She was like, omg, akala ko magkapatid lang kayo.. and of corz my mom was so happy haha. anyhu, she said I was pretty and I was sexy! Haha lolz! Well, of corz, ako pa!

O yeah, my mom wanted to smoke so we went to starbucks and I saw melody wong and alcid! SHOUT OUT TO YOU GUYS!.. im so happy to see them, I miss those bitches soo much! My mom said na ako lang raw ang may normal voice sa lahat ng friends ko. Coz mel and janz and meh all have like high pitched voices, but when Im with them daw, I talk like them na.. haha… well, that’s why we’re friends…

And then we left my brothers at kids at work. Grabe, gawain rin ni mom dati yan sa amin ni sabu e.. we were so kulit, so she leaves us there. And then we shopped some more and then we went to rustan’s for groceries. Yay, I have food for the dorm again! It means I don’t hafta starve no more! FO SHIZZLE! You know, Im craving for corned beef, I don’t know why. Haha. anyhu, my brothers had to shop for something of their own, tsk tsk, kids talaga these days oh! So they bought toys, as usual.. and then we ate again at bonapetite (did I spell that right?!) ahaha. Shyt, im such a fat ass na!! I was gonna eat buffet coz it looked so good, pero nahiya naman ako sa sarili ko! Haha! man, I gotta to stop piggin out!….that was my day.. so here I am a bum once more.. just sound trippin and updating my blog. Oh fck, I need to study pa for my soc sci… oh yeah, yay, coz there are no classes on Monday coz it’s the SONA.. I just hope nuthin fucked up happens. Our country cant take it anymore!

I love being busy. I swamp myself with things to do so I forget all the bad shyt in my life.. yeah, that’s the way it goes.

this is a long blog haha

hola! hola! for the first time in a long while im at home on a friday night. noo, im not a dork, i just really tired. coz as usual i gots training till supah late.. grabe i really love dancing... and the INDAYOG family has really made it more fun! i loves them soo much!! today, we welcomed our babies, batch 9! welcome guys!! shout out to batch 8, the great!!! haha...

i have been dancing nonstop.. but wtf, im still fat! seriously, gosh ha! what does a girl have to do to be thin.. lolz, im just bitchin, coz im one vain biyatch.. its all good. sarap kasi kumain e! haha, this week, its like, ive been eatin in all the places i havent eaten yet in robinsons manila... i ate in sbarro, chef d angelo's, lotsapizza... yeah, way to go michz, you fat ass haha! its like, man, im so damn tired of saving my money, but whatever i do, its still ubos so wtf, just finish it all right?! hell yeah! i just went shopping! girls, sale sa MANGO, kaso mga xl na lang yung size noh...

the UP people are such losers... im talkin about this dance we were supposed to have last wed. as in, we hired a choreographer and shyt coz this was a big thing for us and they cancelled! WTF!! and the thing is, they cancelled the night before!! and those bitched dint even tell us! we learned about it from somebody else...!!!! people, there's this thing called PROFFESSIONALISM! try to learn what that means, and to think you guys are from UP.. tsk tsk!! anyhu, no use bitchin about that, at least we can still use our dance for this thing as CAS.. we're gonna blow your minds away with our performance, ethnic all the way! haha! lolz.

i just discovered that i can be a jazzer.. to all those peepz with 2 left feet. usually you dance street or jazz.. what im sayin is, i can dance both! haha. yes... im officially a dork.

o yeah.. i have this friend who said he's gonna look for boys daw for me, so of course, i go sure why not? who sez no to boylets diba? haha, and so he goes, what type of guy ba do you want? and i go "i cant say, if it happens, it happens. as long as we can talk and shyt he's aight with me, sana cute, sana di barok.. but otha than that he just has to be a good guy".. omg, im growing up! but seriously amigo, it dont matter, as long as he loves me and i love him... naks. i realized that im more of a face person. im more particular sa face, i want a pretty face, it dont matter if he's kinda fat.. dude, the face gene is whats gonna be passed on to our kids right?! haha, and im intelligent na e, so kailangan ko nalang ng gwapo hahaha!!!

so long friends, this blog is hella long!

happy bday todins

Belated HAPPY BDAY TITO DINNO!!… his bday is on july 7 but he celebrated it on july 10. I dint even know he wuz gonna have a party… so when I went home I was all surprised to see my house all spruced and up and food-loaded. Well, that’s always a good thing…. Man, I pigged out Saturday night. Gotta starve the whole of next week!…

Anyhu, I just wanna say that TITO DINNO is the best bestest person in the whole wide world.. as I already said, hes one of the good men left in this world, so them boys betta be like him…he loves his kids to pieces to the point of spoiling them and he’s responsible and funny and oh so corny.. haha.. I love him, and im so thankful for him…. although it aint perfect, coz nuthin in this damn world is perfect, I consider our life now, better than ever. hes our savior… so take care todins k? coz, we don’t know what we crazy girls will do without you…

so damn tired

I should really change my course to major in DANCE, minor in POLSCI. Seriously, I have been dancing nonstop all week and every nook and cranny of my body hurts like effin hell! Monday, I ditched my 5;30-7:00 class to train and then went back to school to attend my 7-8:30 class. Whats up with that right? I didn’t have classes Tuesday though, so that was fine! And then, on Wednesday, we went to Miriam coz we were required to attend a forum there about the economic and political situation right now, as usual, U.P.! it was soo fun! During break time we were taking pictures and people were like laughing at us kasi mukha daw kaming nag field trip. Haha, hello, theres no grass in our campus, so fields are new to us haha! and then I ditched the second half of the forum to meet up with my friends. Shout out to SHARI, thanks for hanging with me girl, even if it wuz just for a while. Shout to my boy, AIDS, (not boyfriend!) thanks for touring me in ATENEO. I swear, I was meant to go to that school. I sooo feel it! it was so funny, while was touring me around I was wearing his school I.d. and I soo fit right in! haha, I didn’t wanna take it off. And then I saw my friend SASSA, and she was like hi and all and then she said, see you around. And I was all see you around too. she so thinks I go to ateneo and I so didn’t correct her, haha, crazy betch! Oh yea, shout out, to the flag-football playing, big man, mistah EURIC LUMANOG! I miss you man!…. me and aids were sitting in one of them benches near the field and as I was looking out I was like, shyt man, this is where I gotta be.. dayum! Oh well, somethings just aint gonna happen.

----MARY ANNE COSCOLLUELA! I miss you so much! I went to Miriam and I was like oh shyt man, I should be hanging with meanne now and she aint here! Dayum! Take care girl, and I loves you!

After that, me and my friend, sherri hung out at AIDS condo and I gotta say, it was nice. It’s the typical boys room except they live in an effin nice condo man! How come there aint shyt like that in manila?! haha. aids, gotta keep it clean for my next visit. Haha. oh yeah, shout out to his homies JD, MACABU, & CHRIS… who I gotta say, is a hottie. Haha…. back to what I was sayin a while ago… Thursday, I trained till like 930pm… coz im dancing this ethnic thing for the UP president.. so it’s a big thing for indayog… the ethnic dance is hott tho… its all modern-y and uh stuff. Friday, I gotz modern jazz classes at 9- 11 am and then I trained for indayog again at 4-930. we started training with ORANGE DANCE STUDIO and our choreographer NAYJEN is so good. I swear them bones of mine got so stretched. And then.. on Saturday, we had to train 10-11 at the orange studio, then 1-4 back at the indayog studio. I ditched the am thing tho coz I was so damn tired. But I trained in the pm.. what a week. Next week is gonna be harder…. Right now, im learning 3 dances at the same time, I better not mix them up! at least, this week was productive...

SCOOTER

Awwwwww…. My body hurts so much!!! I had modern jazz classes this morning and we stretched our heads out! I swear! It sucks coz to begin with, my back was already aching, and my class was at 9 am! Who dances that early? Oooohh, that feels so highschool. I remember our cheering practices haha! I suck at jazz tha’s why I took this class but shyt man, I think I made the wrong choice, its hella hard!

I got a surprise when I came home today! My mom bought us a SCOOTER! Yeah! And its so cute, the color is like blue candy paint! Loves it! it so old school Barbie! Haha! and so my sister taught me how to ride it.. it was easy, coz I kinda know how to ride a bike… so i was cruisin right? fuck man, I almost hit a car! and mind you, the car was parked lang! yeah, i have steering issues haha! and i so dont know how to turn. im such a dork. haha.. yeah, that scooter’s gonna be the death of me…

I am so excited for next week.. coz me and my friends plan to watch the UAAP opening on Saturday!!! Yipeee! Dork, haha. its not that U.P. is gonna make it but who knows right? mostly were rooting for the BLUE EAGLES! WOOHOO! Haha!!

I am in need of someone with flash or java or html skills who can make our business presentation. Of corz, we gotta pay! Nothings free in this world huni! Haha. so please please, I need your help.

I watched CONSTANTINE today.. for the second time! Wait, who did I watch it with the first time? I so don’t remember… anyhu, I still don’t get it that much, am I stupid or what?

lu's bday

...so tonight, i just came from Luat's house coz its Lu's and Arnel's bday! HAPPY BDAY LU AND ARNEL!... now that thats over...as usual, it was so CSA reunion! haha... lagi naman e. so i felt like i was back in highschool coz everybody from highschool was there!!... i so miss meanne and janice already! grabe, kasi dapat sa mga gimmicks like that, theyre the ones i hang out with... e hello, meanne is way over there in the states and janz is like hanging out with her college friends too much already! haha! so, that leaves me... but it was aight, i was hanging out with sila pau and seanne... theyre so sweet.. so we were saying nga na times like kanina namin namimiss sila anil and mel and mams kasi theyre so nosy and so funny! you seriously dont have to say shyt coz theyre so madaldal.. yez, more madaldal than i am!...i miss you guys!! i dint know about anil's fashion show thingy so i wasnt able to go... sorry guys... hehe... anyhu, the party was alright... o yeah, roll call: bagui, luat, arnel, baum, gomz, matti, pierre, angel, peza, ago, rono, aki, ping, mikko, chester, allan, roy, nisar, sean, seanne, pau, crissy, ikay, mia, kat?, janna and of courz muah was there!

highschool

I am back from school! dammit, that’s always my starting blog line. but I was here yesterday pa coz I don’t got skul today coz its MANILA day! Cool right? I don’t know if theres a qc day or wherever day. Anyway, every time im back, I realize how much I love my house. seriously. My heart just smiles at the site of my oh so lovely home, haha, sappy! But I cant help it, where I stay for skul is soo like gloomy and shyt, but I still loves it.

Anyhu, I try to stay at home during Fridays coz Im kinda tired already.. and coz I watch laguna beach. I really love that fcking show dude. I don’t know why. So, today, they graduate from highschool… and me, being the dork that I am, I so remembered my highschool graduation…

Grabe! Highschool is the bomb man! My highschool wasn’t really the highschool movies are made of but I loves it.. it was real.. yez, I had my share of drama, drama, drama. But you know, the extent of my “future” plans was senior year. Seriously. I didn’t and still don’t have any plans for college, so now that im in college im kinda just livin as it is. Yknow? Senior year went by sooo fast, I totally dint feel it and in a way, I kinda didn’t cherish it as much as I shouldve. Were all like that, we take everyday for granted and we hate waking up so early every morning so we don’t really take in what happens during the day. And for me, highschool was soo routine. Everyday, I would wake up at 5 am, and when I get to school, I spend like an hour in the c.r. with my friends and fix my hair the exact same way, fold my socks the exact same way but somehow everyday was so different. Its so unlike college. Right now, im like apart from my body and im just watching my self live my everyday life.. yknow? Like, im not really livin it? sheesh! I don’t fix my hair the same way everyday, I don’t fold my socks, coz most of the time, I don’t even wear socks. And I rarely go the bathroom in school anymore, if I do, its just to see if I still look spankin hot! Haha… and Im not followed by all my friends anymore coz we just get together like 2x a week since that’s the only time were free at the same time. And you know, life just goes on and its so uneventful. But I loves it… I feel nostalgic about the whole highschool thing… but I loves college. I just really really wish college looks up…

jagermeister!

it was Cheska's bday yesterday. we went swimming. anyway, to make the story short. i got so wasted, i wanted to die!!! but before that, i have to say, debuts are so fun coz they are like reunions for CSA ZENIORS 04!... the same people go to the same debuts so in a way we havent lost touch. and last night, Cheska said YES to Gage. it was so sweet. cheska's mom gave her permission to have a boyfriend and ches said yes to gage in front of everybody... awwww! no! i am not jealous!! ahaha! serioulsy, i dont wanna have a boyfriend just for the sake of having one. i want it to be real and genuine and you know, not 'gaguhan'.. hehe. anyhu, i got so wasted coz i drank like 8 jagers,(so fckin lakas!) a beer and i drank mindoro slush or whatever, i think it was spiked punch for chaser! and the whole night i was sayin 'puncher' instead of 'chaser'! how stupid right?! and then i went swimming pa. i swear, i wasnt moving in the pool already. i was just sittin in one corner since my world was spinning! and then... since i coulnd hold it in anymore, i ran to the bathroom to puke haha. gross! and then, i went back to the pool... and then when i went up, i just like sat on the corner and slept. then when me and aj, he brought me home, were in the car to pick up his sister. we stopped pa coz i had to puke again! thats so gross! he was such a sweetie tho... haha. so when i got home na, i ran to the bathroom to yes... i had to again.. and at around 5am i woke up again to yes one more time. fckin gross right!! haha! anyway, i dont have such a bad hangover today but my world is still spinnin....

...and i dont wanna be anything other than what ive been trying to be lately...

im back

im back from my dorm. and i have to say its so good to be home. this week was crazy man, i had no tv coz i got it fixed! so me and the radio got really close haha.

my monday and thursday sched is so tiring. i swear! after my 7pm class, i just wanna sleep. i barely have the energy to walk home... and my Hum 1 class is so boring.. grabe my blockmates arent reciting and im like, recite you fuckers! the questions are so easy coz theyre like opinion questions but they still werent answerin. so i was the only one reciting, the teacher already knows my name! haha. i know, loser! ;p

my socsci class is 3 hours straight of pure hell! hay, my friend is so lucky coz their prof is the basist of sugarfree and she said that hes really good. hes very intelligent daw...

i got tito dinno an m.y.m.p cd coz i think thats what he wants. so im excited to give it to him. its our father's day gift for him!

that was basically my week... it wuz kinda good since i now know of 2 cuties in my cutie-deprived school haha!!!

i am back in school. back to the unbearable heat and pollution of Manila, i know, it sucks. anyhu, im soo happy! haha! i saw this cute guy i was talking about before... i still seriously dont know his name and i havent told my friend, who knows him, that i like him.. haha. labo!! so there. but i so think that he knows that like him or sumthin.coz when i was goin down the stairs in the RH lobby, i saw him in line in the OCS, so malamang i was looking at him. and then his friend tells him something and then he turns around and looks at me. and im like omg! and then i saw my friend who is also in line saw i went up to my friend and chit chatted and the cute guy i like was still looking at me! haha! kilig! yuck! im such a dork! i cant believe i am reduced to this state haha!

you know what else is funny? i had my i.d. pics recopied for school and i got it recopied for 20 pcs for 45 bucks! cheap right? but what the heck, what the freak am i gonna do with 20 1x1 i.d pics?! haha!

i swear it is so fun to find somebody you like in school since it gives you a reason to wake up in the morning. haha. i mean, it gives your school day that extra sumthin. so it aint all boring and shyt. ...

but he probably doesnt know i exist and its just my imagination that he was lookin at me.. oh well...gosh!!

punch me

today, my mom dint wake me up. so thats really cool. it was like 12 already and i was like, wheres my mom? how come she aint all shoutin and shyt? so thats a good thing. well, thats because she was so engrossed with her new punching bag! yes, we have a punching bag. its coz my mom wants to tone her arms and make it all muscle-y and shyt. so she was so excited with it thats why she laid off me for a while.

we watched mr and mrs smith. and fuckin a! i forgot my glasses! so the whole movie was so blurred. bad trip tsong! it wasnt as good as what i expected. i thought it was all soo good and shyt since everybody was all ravin about it, but it aint all that. its the kind of movie you watch because of the actors (hottie brad and ms jolie), not because of the story.
anyhu, before we watched, we passed by this sports shop and so my mom bought a punching bag! haha! cool right?! its really hot...

so now, i have somewhere to vent all my frustations on. haha! anger management!! haha

ciao!

laguna beach

who watches Laguna beach here? it airs Friday nights on MTV. i watch it, and i have to say, Stephen is so damn hot! its like a reality show about the lives of this group of friends who live in the O.C. and yes, most of them are hot. even the girls, i have to say. who wants to watch ugly losers on T.V right?! right, right. anyway, the main happenin is with this love triangle: LC, Stephen and Kristin. ("effin loser, recap ba daw what happened?!) LC is like the best friend of Stephen but she wont admit that she's head over fckn heelz in love with delicious Stephen. Stephen on the other hand loves Kristin and Kristin loves him back. So... theyre like this cutsie couple but i so dont approve of kirstin! i want him to like LC! whatever. i love watchin the show, it makes me feel good haha. loser! but daym, theyre practically my age and they have this LIFE, yknow. and i cant help wonderin where my "effin life is!! i seriously have to say this isnt what LIFE AS THEY SAY is supposed to be.

drama drama drama...

1st week of school

the first week of skul is finally over!.. and it was great! i miss being productive and i miss having somewhere to go everday. i missed seeing my friends and of course i missed having allowance!!

as usual in U.P. classes usually start on the 2nd week of school since the profs dont attend the first day of class. in the 7 subz im taking, only 3 showed up. yes, that is U.P. only 3! so i got baon for nothing woohoo! haha.

its such a bummer cause i got tons of readings for my social science II class. and wtf, the prof is sooo boring, tho alot of ppl say he's really good. i got his sub for 3 hours straight and walang pang one hour i was dying of boredom na! i swear! he was explaining the freakin course outline and he even explained the meaning of "course objectives"! wtf right?! grabe... but my 530 - 7pm class is pretty interesting.. its pol sci 14, and the prof asks questions like whats the meaning of freedom and liberty and equality, and if it does exist and im like, dude, its 7 pm, im hungry! haha!

there's this really cute guy in skul... im not sure what his name is yet.. he's a friend of a friend and im not sure whether i should tell my friend that i like his friend.. haha.. he's cute ha, tall and chinese-chinesan. haha

oooh i watched a lot like love.. its funny.. and kinda sweet.. but it aint all that... ang labo nila... and for the record.. i am soo not like amanda peet's character! uhh!! ;p

back to skul

its is back to school. i so logged in right now coz i wont be able to for the next week or so since imma be back in Manila for school. i just came from there to dump my stuff over at mah place and be there tomorrow to clean up and stuff and then, its back to shool on tuesday!! i have to say, i am quite excited. since, we have been de-blocked which means that i will get to meet new people, hopefully. coz im pretty much sick of my blockmates already! haha! luv you block 3!! and no matter what they say! block 3 rules!! haha.. we dont go frontin like sum other ppl haha. wer just our good old lazy selves who dont care what shyt is goin around haha!...

i miss mary anne, janice (imma see u on wed), melody, anilita!, Mams!, baum-bay, u_rik, sneaky sneaky mana, matti, joooooolz (r u still here?), gomz, carlo alcid (good luck with college! ur finally one of us! ;p)

I miss po-kie, corz (aka mica, uhh!), lavz (sweater monkey), yeng (and her libres), tygre (and her non existent joggin invitations)

i miss my cuzins in NY (seb, sim, josh), my "cuz" in Aus. Car to da Lo, my cuz in Canada kuya marky, and my cuzins in the land w/ no movie house gabby and koko!

i miss my non-existent hunny! hahaha

I LOVE YOU ALL!!!

MEANNE!

i gez everyone knows by now.. MEANNE IS STAYIN IN L.A FOR COLLEGE. im soo sad. she's my bestfriend and all, and you know, bestfriends are supposed to be where you are! i gez its me, janice, and mel.

i thnk its really better for her since her family is there.. okay wtf am i saying?!
its just that im gonna miss her so much. she's been gone for like a month and i totally miss her already! what more now that she's staying there for good?! imma miss goin out with her, and trippen, and shoppin, and dressin up in our hoochie outfits. and our accents! wtf right?!

but its fine. every cloud has its silver lining. wait, there is a saying like that right?! haha. basta, i'll miss ya gurl!

LUCKY ME

Yesterday was our enrollment and I swear I was so lucky.. something happened with their schedules or something so they were all underloaded, that means they have to enroll on june 7 pa. By some freak-o accident, mine came out all fine. So I was able to enroll. So lucky me. I went to this prof. For advising and I swear it was kinda freaky.. instead of just signing my form 5 he made small talk with me.. it was so weird, it was like he was hitting on me or something. I felt like I wasn’t supposed to be there. He was like, so are all your blockmates as vibrant as you are. And I was like, uhh, yeah sure?! And he asked me if I was into movies or books and of course I had to be my pretty little self and not show my
‘bad’ side so I answered all his question with this pretty little smile on my pretty little face. Haha … maybe he was just really madaldal, but its all good coz its always helpful when your in your teacher’s good side. Haha!

And we had our indayog interview, it was fine. They just asked the members if they were really willing to commit to the org. and then they taught us their competing piece, burn. It was so aliw to learn it. kasi ang astig nung sayaw, I swear!

happy bday MARIS!

Happy bday Maris! Im so sorry I wasn’t able to make it to your party.. kasi its soo far! Hehe, bakit kasi on the other side of the world pa e!! haha! but I really hope you had fun.. your giveaways are so cute.

I remember my party, it was so stressful. I swear. And I dint have one of those traditional debut parties. I find them so cute and all but im just not really into those kind of things. so I had mine at my house. its like a debut/inuman party. It was so stressful coz I had to look for giveaways. And my mom was like, what do you wanna give them and I was like, whatever, do we even have to have giveaways? Haha. and then she was the one who picked the food and the caterer and she hired a dj with disco lights and stuff haha. I dint even know we were gonna have that. when I arrived from the salon I was like, woah, what happened to my house! haha.. but it was great coz a lot of people came. More people than I expected and more gifts than I expected. Hehe. I love it… its just what I wanted and more. Just the people that I love together. Awwww…

what does ur bday mean?

i took a quiz in www.blogthings.com its suppose to tell me what my bday means and here it is:

Being born on the 21st day of the month (3 energy) is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life.
The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental.
There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, "couldn't care less" attitude.

You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression.
Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing.
You are energetic and always a good conversationalist.

You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters.
Your mind is practical and rational despite this tendency to jump about.
You are affectionate and loving, but very sensitive.
You are subject to rapid ups and downs.

-- i say its very accurate! except about the singing part! haha

new layout!

my layout is oh so brand new! tha's coz i got so tired with the old one. as usual this ones got so many pictures of muah! haha..

hey carlo! have a safe trip back to australia. i had so much fun with you while you were here! it was crazy! i seriously cant forget the time when this dude said we look good together haha! take care cuz! lotsa luv!

i got up so fuckin early today coz its suppose to be enrollment day. and then when i was about to leave my house sherri texts me and says dont go coz the cybernook got busted or sumthin so enrollment got moved to tomorrow! whats up with that?! good thing i dint leave the house yet.. i guess being late, has its perks then.

i took this EQ test and here are my results: 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.i hate it.. in quizzes like this i always get the average.. thats so boring.

im bored beyond my wits here at home.. and mom making quack quack at me all the time aint helping things one bit! i swear, she gets mad at me for not waking up early. and im like WTF?! i really dont understand why she wants me to do this. im like that, when i dont understand or agree with the reason behind something, i dont do it. thats why Mrs. Padlan, my adviser, was so pissed at me coz i kept wearing my skirt long.. hello! coz i dont know why long skirts are bawal in CSA! UHH!! I HAVE A PROBLEM WITH AUTHORITY!

skul skul skul

its so hard making a dance! i swear, i couldnt think of any steps. i only love dancing when someone makes the steps for me haha!! but its aight i guess... we're almost done, we did the chorus and the first verse in like 3 hours! i know! but we soo had to take a break and hover over to the mall! i swear shopping is therapy!! i wish i had all the money in the world to buy all the clothes i want!! i swear!!

im kinda looking forward to skul already. since ive been such a bummer girl the whole summa! and since i got so much free time even tho there's school na.. and im so looking forward to allowance! fuck it, i hate being broke! who doesnt?!..

and im excited coz my friend is gonna be living with me so its gonna be soo fun! i hope!! im so looking forward to meetin new people since weve been de-blocked already. im looking forward to wear my cutsie outfits to school. im kinda looking forward to having dance training like 3 times a week so i can burn those fats haha!

as good as it gets

I haven’t seen this particular picture of us.. I got this one from mel’s friendster. I swear it just made my heart smile. It made me go awwwwww!.. the caption mel put was “this doesn’t get any better than this..swear..” and I was like, youre soo right mel!! It totally doesent get any better that this. Its kinda sad though, coz we only get together like this during an occasion coz we’re all busy with our own worlds and I think the barkada’s got some shyt goin on right now. but for me, its like this picture is frozen in time. It just froze one really really special moment. Back when this was taken, the barkada was perfet, every was alright and every was happy. And although is not really perfect now, we will always have this. Always… whatever shyt comes our way, we will always have this time.

this is baum, me, meanne, mel, anil, carlo, euric, mams, janice and Ed!

spice girls

Tonight was soo funny!! I just stayed at home… I know I know, it’s a Friday night and im at home. But you know, sometimes, its just better to chill at home. At least you don’t got to wear your hoochie heelz! Haha, don’t get me wrong, I love my shoes. Anyway, after dinner, I locked myself in my room and played my spice girls cd on the radio. I know spice girls?! But I love them, I was like transferred back into time and shyt. And whats so funny is I was singing with them, I still remember the freakin lyrics! Haha! what’s up with that right?! So while I was listening to them I was just taking pictures of myself in my digi cam. Haha, vain right?! Im gonna put the pics with the new layout of my blog.. soon to be out.. im just fixin sum stuff. all my pictures are taken by muah.. yes, yes, vain!

School is about to start.. if im not mistaken, its gonna stat in 2 weeks coz I think mine is on the june 7th. Im kinda excited! I don’t know why.. maybe because of my sched.. I think my earliest class is at 10 or 11 am. Except on Fridays when its 9 am and I have modern jazz. I wanted to take soccer coz wer playing in Diliman but theres also a chance that we’ll be playin in Luneta! And I swear I don’t wanna go there! Hehe… oh yeah, I got a class till 7… im kinda excited coz I haven’t had a class that late before but kinda apprehensive too since imma be walking late at night in the busy and dangerous streets of manila! oh well! And on Tuesdays, I only have one class, which starts at 1 pm! Haha astig tsong!!

pissed off

speaking of star wars...

dont you hate the feeling of waiting for something and it doesnt come?! i know i do!!!

okay so.."somebody" told me that he (we all know 'somebody' is a he) and i will watch starwars together.. so it was like he asked me out like a month before the actual date. date as in whats the day ok? anyhu, ako naman si tanga, i was looking forward to it even though i know na he's gonna forget about or its not gonna be tuloy. yeah as usual, i was right!.. tho i have to say, it sucks to be right in these kind of things. anyway, i watched it without him coz diba nga i had this feeling and yeah, sadly i was right. so i texted him and i was like, so did you watch starwars na? and he was like yeah.. and i was like, uhh, i have this vague recollection that you said we were gonna watch it together but maybe im wrong. and he was like, yeah i did, but my mom made me watch it e.. i was thinking like dude, did she put a gun to your head?! well, what the hell, he obviously dint wanna watch it with me so f*ck it, right? i dont need him. but the thing is i was kinda looking forward to it since i havent seen him for a long time and all. but whatever. im not that type of person kasi who would say something about it, i would just wait to find out what happens. im not like confrontational and stuff, i just remember what you say and if you werent true to your word, id just take it against you without you knowing it.. hay! but in fairness sa kanya, he was all like, we can still watch it you know. and i was like, i watched it na!.. i was thinking, thanks ha but no thanks! so second choice ako! and i bet he wouldnt even tell me that he watched it na if i dint ask. eh, what if i was one of those stupid girls who wouldnt watch it coz 'reserve' na to watch it with 'him'?!!! e di what, im screwed?! well whatever, he dint force me to believe him right, so its my fault. gosh...thats all i can say.... f*ck!! o yeah, that too..

2 days out

had soo much fun today. one of my best friends, janice, asked me to go to ed's get together thing at his house. (ed's her man, hehe) anyway, since q.c. is so hella on the other side of the world, she said i could sleep over at her house. so i went...
most of the people that would be there ate ed's thing would be their friends.. and i was a wee bit worried since i wasnt really that close with them but i thought that it would be aight since ive met them and all and their really cool people. so, i was right, i loove them! haha! yeah, theyre fun!!

and then when me and janz went home we were talking up to like 3 am! grabe i realized how much i missed her coz i havent been spending much time with her lately since college started. you know, we all have our own worlds already and own things to deal with and when we see each other we dont really get to talk as in talk. so yeah, thats what we did, we just talked about everything and anything up to the point that we just fell asleep haha. daldal kasi eh..

then the next day, we went shopping at greenhills, tho i dont know if thats considered shopping since i juz got 1 top haha! sorry ah, no baon e! hehe. then we watched starwars... as usual, third wheel! haha! but its was coo! theyre fun to be with naman e...

speaking of starwars, i just have to say anakin is hot!! haha...and about his vision.. that his padmae was gonna die...that was the reason he consorted with the dark force. i think 'visions' are exactly what they are, 'visions' of whats gonna happen. and no matter how much you avoid it, its gonna happen. like anakin, he tried to save padmae from dying but in the end he was the one who caused her death. how ironic and how tragic.. sad sad sad. oh well!

HAPPY BDAY EURIC!!!

it was eurics bday.. shiet, i dont know the exact date... hehe, sorry euric. anyway, we went swimming at mama m's last saturday.. and as usual. it was soo fun and euric got trashed. haha! i dint tho, coz i just drank sobrang little lang... anyways, once again i miss my friends..

[bummer mode]

today is friday the 13th.. i hope nothing happens to me. im not really buying the badluck thing, but hey, cant be too cautious you know. i think i read sumthin about this cursed day, as they say, in the da vinci code, anyhu, obviously i dont remember crap about it, i just remember that i remember sumthin about it. eck! im freakin wasted dude. it is now 1:50 am in mah clock, thats is roughly 20 mins late according to mah U.P time. this sucks i cant sleep, seriously. since i dont got no school, i just bum around the house the whole day but i still sleep in unnatural hours, call me a nocturnal creature if you must. a beautiful nocturnal creature please. haha. i see my humor still hasnt deserted me tho, my senses have, obviously. anyhu, goin back to what i was saying, i sleep late and wake up, of course late. and if the need to wake up early arises, i am dead. i am unrealiable during those hours before lunch.. haay, the life of a bum. its fun tho, i now have a closer than ever relationship with the boob tube.

i wanna change my layout, its soo tacky and cheesy... but i still loves it. hehe. i love pink, what can i say.

i feel the need to share with you my day. i went to school today. note to mah biological father, who obviously dont know i have a blog: i need a car! commuting is a bitch. a bitch who deserves to die!!! although i know everybody has to commute now and then, i do not care. i do not give a f*ckin damn! i hate it!!! sorry to those who commute, nah.. im sure you hate it too. anyhu, i went to mah place in manila to look for this password to pre-enlist mah sched. i dont even know what subz im suppose to take. shiet, i dont know crap, and someday its gonna catch up with me. anyways, since it was 5-ish already, i decided to watch meteor garden. look what i have reduced myself into!! i now watch meteor garden! although, ive only seen 2 episodes of the 'full edition', i dont usually watch it. yes, again it goes back to the life of a bum.. although i have to say that the show is pretty entertaining and dao is so hott! i say this, since i wasnt a part of the meteor garden fever sumtime ago.

its is now 2am and i am such a dork for still being online!!

wala lang

i have no feelings... yeah, its like nothing out of the ordinary is happenin to mah life.. at least, nothing worth mentioning.

update: prayers havent been answered yet..
but i think that i want the thing im praying for so much that i dont realize that a lot of good things have been going mah way.. you know?? its like, you dont see the good things in front of you coz youre lookin too far... oh shiet, im getting all wise on you again. haha!!

LOVE LOVE LOVE

here's a lil sumthin sumthin i wanna share with you all.. i was thinking that so many people have their definitions of love, and thats good, cause love has many faces... naks, told you i was wise haha!

but since this is my blog, here is my definition of the word that has caused much happiness and sadly, pain...

love is the EQUATING FORCE... does it sound right?? it is cause..

no matter who you are and what you are you feel love. you can be a gurl, boy, gay, bi, lesbo, fat, thin, tall, short, pretty, not so pretty fine ugly!, hot, not so hot, rich, medium rich haha, poor, superstar or average joe, a bitch, a sweetie... you get the point... you want to love and be loved. it is the equating force cause tho your hella pretty and hella rich and hella famous, youre happy when youre inlove and you get hurt when someone plays you. the superstar gets hurt as much as the next person. .we all experience love. because of love, we are equal.

comment and lets see what your definition is...

wisdom from jaded me

" the only time you lose is when you really want to win"

i got that from a Disney movie. and it has some truth to it right?? not winning only hurts if you really expected to win... cause if you think about it, as long as you had fun, you won already...

a thing about expecting.. see, i dont expect shyt from no one. its a thing i do so i wont get disappointed. i hope, yeah, but i dont expect, that way, when what i want dont come through, i can tell myself that nobody told me it would happen anyway. but not expecting dont mean you dont get disappointed. remember that!! crap, whatever happens, you get hurt and disappointed no matter what you do.

college plans

im still on the down low... but today something totally unexpected happened!!! so i was doin the whole boring thing and then somebody calls me!! its someone from CAMP!.. for those who dont know what CAMP iz tha college of allied medical professions at u.p. manila... cause im shifting to speech pathology. im so not counting to get in coz only uber smart people get in there... im not that smart so im not counting to get in.. anyhu, they called and said i got in the first cut or sumthing like that.. i have this interview on monday. so wish me luck!!!

i dont really know what i wanna do!! i seriously have no fixed plans on what to take!!! i figured if i get into speech path then i oughta take it. if i dont, then polsci is fine. i've always wanted to be a lawyer anyways. so i see it as a sign from God!.. haha. but seriously, if i dont get in, then it aint for me, i guess i wont be happy there. so i dont know, lets see what happens...

the thing about praying

this aint cool no more... you know...im a good kid, i pray, in fact i pray a lot!! i looove my God. im sure he loves me too.. but lately i dont feel the love.. i mean where is the love? where the f*ck is the love?!! i feel so blasphemous (or whatever it is you call it) and ungrateful.. but lately, its just been hard.

i know i have to grateful and all, and i am, but it really gets frustrating when your prayers dont get answered. the thing about praying is you feel vulnerable, you know, coz you acknowledge your weaknesses and all. you acknowledge that you cant handle shyt no more and you need his help, you got no one to turn to so you turn to him.. but i dont think he listens to me.. lately is like "hello!! are you there?" you pray your f*ckin brains out and still nothin happens. you still have enuf brains left to realize this shyt aint funny anymore...

God, im just ravin here, dont get mad at me k?? coz really im a very good kid!!! hahahaha