its so hard making a dance! i swear, i couldnt think of any steps. i only love dancing when someone makes the steps for me haha!! but its aight i guess... we're almost done, we did the chorus and the first verse in like 3 hours! i know! but we soo had to take a break and hover over to the mall! i swear shopping is therapy!! i wish i had all the money in the world to buy all the clothes i want!! i swear!!
im kinda looking forward to skul already. since ive been such a bummer girl the whole summa! and since i got so much free time even tho there's school na.. and im so looking forward to allowance! fuck it, i hate being broke! who doesnt?!..
and im excited coz my friend is gonna be living with me so its gonna be soo fun! i hope!! im so looking forward to meetin new people since weve been de-blocked already. im looking forward to wear my cutsie outfits to school. im kinda looking forward to having dance training like 3 times a week so i can burn those fats haha!
Monday, May 30, 2005
Saturday, May 28, 2005
as good as it gets
I haven’t seen this particular picture of us.. I got this one from mel’s friendster. I swear it just made my heart smile. It made me go awwwwww!.. the caption mel put was “this doesn’t get any better than this..swear..” and I was like, youre soo right mel!! It totally doesent get any better that this. Its kinda sad though, coz we only get together like this during an occasion coz we’re all busy with our own worlds and I think the barkada’s got some shyt goin on right now. but for me, its like this picture is frozen in time. It just froze one really really special moment. Back when this was taken, the barkada was perfet, every was alright and every was happy. And although is not really perfect now, we will always have this. Always… whatever shyt comes our way, we will always have this time.this is baum, me, meanne, mel, anil, carlo, euric, mams, janice and Ed!
spice girls
Tonight was soo funny!! I just stayed at home… I know I know, it’s a Friday night and im at home. But you know, sometimes, its just better to chill at home. At least you don’t got to wear your hoochie heelz! Haha, don’t get me wrong, I love my shoes. Anyway, after dinner, I locked myself in my room and played my spice girls cd on the radio. I know spice girls?! But I love them, I was like transferred back into time and shyt. And whats so funny is I was singing with them, I still remember the freakin lyrics! Haha! what’s up with that right?! So while I was listening to them I was just taking pictures of myself in my digi cam. Haha, vain right?! Im gonna put the pics with the new layout of my blog.. soon to be out.. im just fixin sum stuff. all my pictures are taken by muah.. yes, yes, vain!
School is about to start.. if im not mistaken, its gonna stat in 2 weeks coz I think mine is on the june 7th. Im kinda excited! I don’t know why.. maybe because of my sched.. I think my earliest class is at 10 or 11 am. Except on Fridays when its 9 am and I have modern jazz. I wanted to take soccer coz wer playing in Diliman but theres also a chance that we’ll be playin in Luneta! And I swear I don’t wanna go there! Hehe… oh yeah, I got a class till 7… im kinda excited coz I haven’t had a class that late before but kinda apprehensive too since imma be walking late at night in the busy and dangerous streets of manila! oh well! And on Tuesdays, I only have one class, which starts at 1 pm! Haha astig tsong!!
School is about to start.. if im not mistaken, its gonna stat in 2 weeks coz I think mine is on the june 7th. Im kinda excited! I don’t know why.. maybe because of my sched.. I think my earliest class is at 10 or 11 am. Except on Fridays when its 9 am and I have modern jazz. I wanted to take soccer coz wer playing in Diliman but theres also a chance that we’ll be playin in Luneta! And I swear I don’t wanna go there! Hehe… oh yeah, I got a class till 7… im kinda excited coz I haven’t had a class that late before but kinda apprehensive too since imma be walking late at night in the busy and dangerous streets of manila! oh well! And on Tuesdays, I only have one class, which starts at 1 pm! Haha astig tsong!!
Sunday, May 22, 2005
pissed off
speaking of star wars...
dont you hate the feeling of waiting for something and it doesnt come?! i know i do!!!
okay so.."somebody" told me that he (we all know 'somebody' is a he) and i will watch starwars together.. so it was like he asked me out like a month before the actual date. date as in whats the day ok? anyhu, ako naman si tanga, i was looking forward to it even though i know na he's gonna forget about or its not gonna be tuloy. yeah as usual, i was right!.. tho i have to say, it sucks to be right in these kind of things. anyway, i watched it without him coz diba nga i had this feeling and yeah, sadly i was right. so i texted him and i was like, so did you watch starwars na? and he was like yeah.. and i was like, uhh, i have this vague recollection that you said we were gonna watch it together but maybe im wrong. and he was like, yeah i did, but my mom made me watch it e.. i was thinking like dude, did she put a gun to your head?! well, what the hell, he obviously dint wanna watch it with me so f*ck it, right? i dont need him. but the thing is i was kinda looking forward to it since i havent seen him for a long time and all. but whatever. im not that type of person kasi who would say something about it, i would just wait to find out what happens. im not like confrontational and stuff, i just remember what you say and if you werent true to your word, id just take it against you without you knowing it.. hay! but in fairness sa kanya, he was all like, we can still watch it you know. and i was like, i watched it na!.. i was thinking, thanks ha but no thanks! so second choice ako! and i bet he wouldnt even tell me that he watched it na if i dint ask. eh, what if i was one of those stupid girls who wouldnt watch it coz 'reserve' na to watch it with 'him'?!!! e di what, im screwed?! well whatever, he dint force me to believe him right, so its my fault. gosh...thats all i can say.... f*ck!! o yeah, that too..
dont you hate the feeling of waiting for something and it doesnt come?! i know i do!!!
okay so.."somebody" told me that he (we all know 'somebody' is a he) and i will watch starwars together.. so it was like he asked me out like a month before the actual date. date as in whats the day ok? anyhu, ako naman si tanga, i was looking forward to it even though i know na he's gonna forget about or its not gonna be tuloy. yeah as usual, i was right!.. tho i have to say, it sucks to be right in these kind of things. anyway, i watched it without him coz diba nga i had this feeling and yeah, sadly i was right. so i texted him and i was like, so did you watch starwars na? and he was like yeah.. and i was like, uhh, i have this vague recollection that you said we were gonna watch it together but maybe im wrong. and he was like, yeah i did, but my mom made me watch it e.. i was thinking like dude, did she put a gun to your head?! well, what the hell, he obviously dint wanna watch it with me so f*ck it, right? i dont need him. but the thing is i was kinda looking forward to it since i havent seen him for a long time and all. but whatever. im not that type of person kasi who would say something about it, i would just wait to find out what happens. im not like confrontational and stuff, i just remember what you say and if you werent true to your word, id just take it against you without you knowing it.. hay! but in fairness sa kanya, he was all like, we can still watch it you know. and i was like, i watched it na!.. i was thinking, thanks ha but no thanks! so second choice ako! and i bet he wouldnt even tell me that he watched it na if i dint ask. eh, what if i was one of those stupid girls who wouldnt watch it coz 'reserve' na to watch it with 'him'?!!! e di what, im screwed?! well whatever, he dint force me to believe him right, so its my fault. gosh...thats all i can say.... f*ck!! o yeah, that too..
2 days out
had soo much fun today. one of my best friends, janice, asked me to go to ed's get together thing at his house. (ed's her man, hehe) anyway, since q.c. is so hella on the other side of the world, she said i could sleep over at her house. so i went...
most of the people that would be there ate ed's thing would be their friends.. and i was a wee bit worried since i wasnt really that close with them but i thought that it would be aight since ive met them and all and their really cool people. so, i was right, i loove them! haha! yeah, theyre fun!!
and then when me and janz went home we were talking up to like 3 am! grabe i realized how much i missed her coz i havent been spending much time with her lately since college started. you know, we all have our own worlds already and own things to deal with and when we see each other we dont really get to talk as in talk. so yeah, thats what we did, we just talked about everything and anything up to the point that we just fell asleep haha. daldal kasi eh..
then the next day, we went shopping at greenhills, tho i dont know if thats considered shopping since i juz got 1 top haha! sorry ah, no baon e! hehe. then we watched starwars... as usual, third wheel! haha! but its was coo! theyre fun to be with naman e...
speaking of starwars, i just have to say anakin is hot!! haha...and about his vision.. that his padmae was gonna die...that was the reason he consorted with the dark force. i think 'visions' are exactly what they are, 'visions' of whats gonna happen. and no matter how much you avoid it, its gonna happen. like anakin, he tried to save padmae from dying but in the end he was the one who caused her death. how ironic and how tragic.. sad sad sad. oh well!
most of the people that would be there ate ed's thing would be their friends.. and i was a wee bit worried since i wasnt really that close with them but i thought that it would be aight since ive met them and all and their really cool people. so, i was right, i loove them! haha! yeah, theyre fun!!
and then when me and janz went home we were talking up to like 3 am! grabe i realized how much i missed her coz i havent been spending much time with her lately since college started. you know, we all have our own worlds already and own things to deal with and when we see each other we dont really get to talk as in talk. so yeah, thats what we did, we just talked about everything and anything up to the point that we just fell asleep haha. daldal kasi eh..
then the next day, we went shopping at greenhills, tho i dont know if thats considered shopping since i juz got 1 top haha! sorry ah, no baon e! hehe. then we watched starwars... as usual, third wheel! haha! but its was coo! theyre fun to be with naman e...
speaking of starwars, i just have to say anakin is hot!! haha...and about his vision.. that his padmae was gonna die...that was the reason he consorted with the dark force. i think 'visions' are exactly what they are, 'visions' of whats gonna happen. and no matter how much you avoid it, its gonna happen. like anakin, he tried to save padmae from dying but in the end he was the one who caused her death. how ironic and how tragic.. sad sad sad. oh well!
Monday, May 16, 2005
HAPPY BDAY EURIC!!!
it was eurics bday.. shiet, i dont know the exact date... hehe, sorry euric. anyway, we went swimming at mama m's last saturday.. and as usual. it was soo fun and euric got trashed. haha! i dint tho, coz i just drank sobrang little lang... anyways, once again i miss my friends..
Friday, May 13, 2005
[bummer mode]
today is friday the 13th.. i hope nothing happens to me. im not really buying the badluck thing, but hey, cant be too cautious you know. i think i read sumthin about this cursed day, as they say, in the da vinci code, anyhu, obviously i dont remember crap about it, i just remember that i remember sumthin about it. eck! im freakin wasted dude. it is now 1:50 am in mah clock, thats is roughly 20 mins late according to mah U.P time. this sucks i cant sleep, seriously. since i dont got no school, i just bum around the house the whole day but i still sleep in unnatural hours, call me a nocturnal creature if you must. a beautiful nocturnal creature please. haha. i see my humor still hasnt deserted me tho, my senses have, obviously. anyhu, goin back to what i was saying, i sleep late and wake up, of course late. and if the need to wake up early arises, i am dead. i am unrealiable during those hours before lunch.. haay, the life of a bum. its fun tho, i now have a closer than ever relationship with the boob tube.
i wanna change my layout, its soo tacky and cheesy... but i still loves it. hehe. i love pink, what can i say.
i feel the need to share with you my day. i went to school today. note to mah biological father, who obviously dont know i have a blog: i need a car! commuting is a bitch. a bitch who deserves to die!!! although i know everybody has to commute now and then, i do not care. i do not give a f*ckin damn! i hate it!!! sorry to those who commute, nah.. im sure you hate it too. anyhu, i went to mah place in manila to look for this password to pre-enlist mah sched. i dont even know what subz im suppose to take. shiet, i dont know crap, and someday its gonna catch up with me. anyways, since it was 5-ish already, i decided to watch meteor garden. look what i have reduced myself into!! i now watch meteor garden! although, ive only seen 2 episodes of the 'full edition', i dont usually watch it. yes, again it goes back to the life of a bum.. although i have to say that the show is pretty entertaining and dao is so hott! i say this, since i wasnt a part of the meteor garden fever sumtime ago.
its is now 2am and i am such a dork for still being online!!
i wanna change my layout, its soo tacky and cheesy... but i still loves it. hehe. i love pink, what can i say.
i feel the need to share with you my day. i went to school today. note to mah biological father, who obviously dont know i have a blog: i need a car! commuting is a bitch. a bitch who deserves to die!!! although i know everybody has to commute now and then, i do not care. i do not give a f*ckin damn! i hate it!!! sorry to those who commute, nah.. im sure you hate it too. anyhu, i went to mah place in manila to look for this password to pre-enlist mah sched. i dont even know what subz im suppose to take. shiet, i dont know crap, and someday its gonna catch up with me. anyways, since it was 5-ish already, i decided to watch meteor garden. look what i have reduced myself into!! i now watch meteor garden! although, ive only seen 2 episodes of the 'full edition', i dont usually watch it. yes, again it goes back to the life of a bum.. although i have to say that the show is pretty entertaining and dao is so hott! i say this, since i wasnt a part of the meteor garden fever sumtime ago.
its is now 2am and i am such a dork for still being online!!
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
wala lang
i have no feelings... yeah, its like nothing out of the ordinary is happenin to mah life.. at least, nothing worth mentioning.
update: prayers havent been answered yet..
but i think that i want the thing im praying for so much that i dont realize that a lot of good things have been going mah way.. you know?? its like, you dont see the good things in front of you coz youre lookin too far... oh shiet, im getting all wise on you again. haha!!
update: prayers havent been answered yet..
but i think that i want the thing im praying for so much that i dont realize that a lot of good things have been going mah way.. you know?? its like, you dont see the good things in front of you coz youre lookin too far... oh shiet, im getting all wise on you again. haha!!
Sunday, May 08, 2005
LOVE LOVE LOVE
here's a lil sumthin sumthin i wanna share with you all.. i was thinking that so many people have their definitions of love, and thats good, cause love has many faces... naks, told you i was wise haha!
but since this is my blog, here is my definition of the word that has caused much happiness and sadly, pain...
love is the EQUATING FORCE... does it sound right?? it is cause..
no matter who you are and what you are you feel love. you can be a gurl, boy, gay, bi, lesbo, fat, thin, tall, short, pretty, not so pretty fine ugly!, hot, not so hot, rich, medium rich haha, poor, superstar or average joe, a bitch, a sweetie... you get the point... you want to love and be loved. it is the equating force cause tho your hella pretty and hella rich and hella famous, youre happy when youre inlove and you get hurt when someone plays you. the superstar gets hurt as much as the next person. .we all experience love. because of love, we are equal.
but since this is my blog, here is my definition of the word that has caused much happiness and sadly, pain...
love is the EQUATING FORCE... does it sound right?? it is cause..
no matter who you are and what you are you feel love. you can be a gurl, boy, gay, bi, lesbo, fat, thin, tall, short, pretty, not so pretty fine ugly!, hot, not so hot, rich, medium rich haha, poor, superstar or average joe, a bitch, a sweetie... you get the point... you want to love and be loved. it is the equating force cause tho your hella pretty and hella rich and hella famous, youre happy when youre inlove and you get hurt when someone plays you. the superstar gets hurt as much as the next person. .we all experience love. because of love, we are equal.
comment and lets see what your definition is...
Friday, May 06, 2005
wisdom from jaded me
" the only time you lose is when you really want to win"
i got that from a Disney movie. and it has some truth to it right?? not winning only hurts if you really expected to win... cause if you think about it, as long as you had fun, you won already...
a thing about expecting.. see, i dont expect shyt from no one. its a thing i do so i wont get disappointed. i hope, yeah, but i dont expect, that way, when what i want dont come through, i can tell myself that nobody told me it would happen anyway. but not expecting dont mean you dont get disappointed. remember that!! crap, whatever happens, you get hurt and disappointed no matter what you do.
i got that from a Disney movie. and it has some truth to it right?? not winning only hurts if you really expected to win... cause if you think about it, as long as you had fun, you won already...
a thing about expecting.. see, i dont expect shyt from no one. its a thing i do so i wont get disappointed. i hope, yeah, but i dont expect, that way, when what i want dont come through, i can tell myself that nobody told me it would happen anyway. but not expecting dont mean you dont get disappointed. remember that!! crap, whatever happens, you get hurt and disappointed no matter what you do.
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
college plans
im still on the down low... but today something totally unexpected happened!!! so i was doin the whole boring thing and then somebody calls me!! its someone from CAMP!.. for those who dont know what CAMP iz tha college of allied medical professions at u.p. manila... cause im shifting to speech pathology. im so not counting to get in coz only uber smart people get in there... im not that smart so im not counting to get in.. anyhu, they called and said i got in the first cut or sumthing like that.. i have this interview on monday. so wish me luck!!!
i dont really know what i wanna do!! i seriously have no fixed plans on what to take!!! i figured if i get into speech path then i oughta take it. if i dont, then polsci is fine. i've always wanted to be a lawyer anyways. so i see it as a sign from God!.. haha. but seriously, if i dont get in, then it aint for me, i guess i wont be happy there. so i dont know, lets see what happens...
i dont really know what i wanna do!! i seriously have no fixed plans on what to take!!! i figured if i get into speech path then i oughta take it. if i dont, then polsci is fine. i've always wanted to be a lawyer anyways. so i see it as a sign from God!.. haha. but seriously, if i dont get in, then it aint for me, i guess i wont be happy there. so i dont know, lets see what happens...
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
the thing about praying
this aint cool no more... you know...im a good kid, i pray, in fact i pray a lot!! i looove my God. im sure he loves me too.. but lately i dont feel the love.. i mean where is the love? where the f*ck is the love?!! i feel so blasphemous (or whatever it is you call it) and ungrateful.. but lately, its just been hard.
i know i have to grateful and all, and i am, but it really gets frustrating when your prayers dont get answered. the thing about praying is you feel vulnerable, you know, coz you acknowledge your weaknesses and all. you acknowledge that you cant handle shyt no more and you need his help, you got no one to turn to so you turn to him.. but i dont think he listens to me.. lately is like "hello!! are you there?" you pray your f*ckin brains out and still nothin happens. you still have enuf brains left to realize this shyt aint funny anymore...
God, im just ravin here, dont get mad at me k?? coz really im a very good kid!!! hahahaha
i know i have to grateful and all, and i am, but it really gets frustrating when your prayers dont get answered. the thing about praying is you feel vulnerable, you know, coz you acknowledge your weaknesses and all. you acknowledge that you cant handle shyt no more and you need his help, you got no one to turn to so you turn to him.. but i dont think he listens to me.. lately is like "hello!! are you there?" you pray your f*ckin brains out and still nothin happens. you still have enuf brains left to realize this shyt aint funny anymore...
God, im just ravin here, dont get mad at me k?? coz really im a very good kid!!! hahahaha
down low
i dont know whats with me but im down there. i mean, i feelin low, depressed or sum shyt like that. i dont know if its because of the terrible heat that makes you, duh, freakin sweaty. or if its coz i feel left out coz all my friends are in summer school and its hard to hang with them coz they got school and all. i feel alone or sumthin.
you know how summers are, you got this perfect picture of great bodies, the beach, a tan, friends, booze, someone to just hug or whatever and instead im stuck at home!! not really stuck, but you get the picture!! aaaaaaaaggggggggghhhhh!!!!!!!!!
you know how summers are, you got this perfect picture of great bodies, the beach, a tan, friends, booze, someone to just hug or whatever and instead im stuck at home!! not really stuck, but you get the picture!! aaaaaaaaggggggggghhhhh!!!!!!!!!
THAT GIRL IN CALI
obviously that girl from california is MEANNE! well, she's there and she says she might not come back here in the phils... but i have a feeling she will.. well, she better!! we got really close in 3rd year back in CSA, and we have been best friends ever since, togethere with JANICE. the thought that she might not come sucks big time coz you know, you can never find another meh. tha's juz the way it is you know. you're not best friends with someone you can replace! the defies the whole idea of having best friends... duh!!
anyway, i really miss tha betch. i miss hangin out, and shopping, and clubbin ,and runnin away from the scary guys, haha! believe me, in this world full of beautiful people, there are scary ones. beware!!! i miss pretending to be jen and she, charlene, or whatever we decide our names are for the night.. haha!! i miss having my feet hurt like hell coz of tha hoochie heelz were wearing, okay, not the painful part, but the hoochie part! haha!!! i miss having to comfort this cry baby whenever the tears come fallin.. trust me, meh and janice crying is such a sight! haha!! anyway, bottomline is.. we're the HOODRATS and we have to be complete!! ciao baby!
anyway, i really miss tha betch. i miss hangin out, and shopping, and clubbin ,and runnin away from the scary guys, haha! believe me, in this world full of beautiful people, there are scary ones. beware!!! i miss pretending to be jen and she, charlene, or whatever we decide our names are for the night.. haha!! i miss having my feet hurt like hell coz of tha hoochie heelz were wearing, okay, not the painful part, but the hoochie part! haha!!! i miss having to comfort this cry baby whenever the tears come fallin.. trust me, meh and janice crying is such a sight! haha!! anyway, bottomline is.. we're the HOODRATS and we have to be complete!! ciao baby!
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