good times

every things going oookkaayyy, note that im not saying good. coz i dont know, things tend to turn shitty when i do that. .. good for me, now, i dont go around living like there's nothing to live for. i, constantly amazed at how things are working out, hopefully its for good, but we all know that aint gonna happen. this fact sucks: "while good things dont last, some dont even happen:
but what can we do right? im determnined to make the good things last as long as they can and make as much memories as possible, coz at the end of the day, that the only youve got right? right!

today was a good day, me and carlie met up at g4. he was late, as fuckn usual. hay, but its ok. fine, its not, but...hay, let go. and then we just hanged out at mdco. ever. i was supposed to get picked up but he said he's gonna bring me home nalang. but his car was at his condo. so, from g4 rode the mrt to his condo and he drove me home. hassle noh? but i love spending time with that dude. and cheap thrills are the best. but i have to say, hassle siya hehe.

live it like you dont give a fxck!

look how screwed i am, i posted the exact same thing na pala. hahaha!

panic attacks

its been such a long time since i last updated. like a month? sorry you guys.

anyhu, its just that there are a lot of things happening. like for example: the scholarship was finalized already. and the dates not sure yet but im leavin on the 15-18th of sept. look, i got a month to go! oh, god, im having panic attacks already. a month, can you imagine? a month to cram everything in. what the hell right? im excited as hell, but so f-ing sad at the same time. talk about irony.

plus, im back together with my ex, carlo. okay, not back together, but to use his words "getting there but we consider ourselves as taken". labo noh?arte talaga. haha. but whatever, its not like i can make demands coz im leavin, duh-huh. so its been really good.... really. except for last night, god so annoying. okay, i dont wanna re-live it anymore since it sucks and i have to fill my remaining days with happy thoughts...remaining days? may ganun? haha


and school...well, i applied for l.o.a. already but it isnt final yet. so i dont have to attend class anymore, but i still do. talk about being a nerd haha. i know right? god, im weird.

so thats about the long and short of it. god, im so screwed.

live it like you dont give a fxck!

god, i havent updated for the longest time! its just that everythings happening at the same time.. and plus, im leavin soon.... awwwwwwwww. fuck man, im startin to panic, i have one month left... well, roughly. i leave sumtym around sept. 15-18..

well mostly im really really excited. but i im havin like panic attacks... i dont wanna leave coz of my "boy" (cant say bf coz of complicated stuff..more later) and coz of my fam of corz. and my indayog family. omg, i love them they are my life. they keep me sane. and thin-er. okay, dan, i can hear you say porky right now.!!!! and my friends wuhuhu!

about they boy... i got back with carlo. but its not official, its just an understanding. i know, it sucks, but i feel like i cant demand so much coz im leavin him rin naman...

live it like you dont give a fxck!

god, i havent updated for the longest time! its just that everythings happening at the same time.. and plus, im leavin soon.... awwwwwwwww. fuck man, im startin to panic, i have one month left... well, roughly. i leave sumtym around sept. 15-18..

well mostly im really really excited. but i im havin like panic attacks... i dont wanna leave coz of my "boy" (cant say bf coz of complicated stuff..more later) and coz of my fam of corz. and my indayog family. omg, i love them they are my life. they keep me sane. and thin-er. okay, dan, i can hear you say porky right now.!!!! and my friends wuhuhu!

about they boy... i got back with carlo. but its not official, its just an understanding. i know, it sucks, but i feel like i cant demand so much coz im leavin him rin naman...

im on my way

ola all! ive got my blog back. i figured i really needed this to keep everyone up to date when im in taipei na. its not yet one hundred percent sure but i got the scholarship so im hoping everything else will fall into place na! im sooooo fuckin excited!! i guess the nervous and scary jitters will just show up when its time to go. but as of now, i excited!

daym darkness

i went to caylabne with my fam. dang, that place is so efffin nice!! check out my pics at michababy.multiply.com

okay, can sumbody fix this fxcking blog? i cant see my tagboard!!!

so, i cant believe, i just survived the worst shyt. wow, thats a first. crying in front of someone is embarassing, well it is for me coz i dont cry at all. but i do now, right. now that we resolved the prob everything is good na. at least i think it is.... right? omg, now i know what they mean when they say communication is the key... tsk tsk. i just hate being left in the dark. dude, im a know it all, haha! so i cant stand not knowing whats goin on around me..

its a good thing its over

its a good thing that whole stressful week is over. dang, i had to chose between school and indayog.. so duh, i chose school! but i felt so guilty... anyway, all is good coz i was able to train... fast forward to the end of my story, we got paid 15k!

awww, adrian is so sweet, he hung out with me during our show... basta un... bottomline is he's so sweet!

o yeah! i saw duncan from southborder.. coz he was one of the guests in the show we danced in... HE'S SO HOT! as in daym!

so basically that was my week... o yeah, i visited ateneo and then me and adrian watched DATE MOVIE, its so fxckin gross.

so now, whats left of my sophomore year are 2 papers and 2 exams... hay, konti na lang!!

oh, the heat!

daym, daym, daym. so, schools about to end. great. but the thing is, i got tons of papers to do and no info to start with. fxckin great! imma fail this course, i swear! imma fail! waaaahh!!!

i just finished goin thru my friends' profiles, coz i havent seen them in a while and was hopin to catch up thru friendster.. pathetic i know. tsk tsk. so i saw janice's page. and i ws like, ohhh myyy Gaaaadddd! i miss us na. kasi naman skul talga, hassle! i swear i just feel like crying everytime i see pics of us together. its been too long guys.... huhu.

so, life is great. except for this God-awful heat. fxck ha, ang init talga, its not funny anymore. my pits are wetter than ever. ewwwww. just kidding haha. i dont stink...

lovelife? finally, i have one! haha. thats all im gonna say about it.. okay fine...i'l make kwento. so you see, i prefer dating ppl who dint go to csa coz its just easier that way. no one has to live up to expectations and pre conceived notions and what not, yknow? but my boyfriend does. wait, im just so not used to saying i have a boyfriend.. i have a boyfriend. i have a boyfriend.. okay, enuf. goin back... so like everyone that knows him goes like, ayy siya? he's like this or like that. and im like. this is exactly why i dont date h.s. friends!!! but its aight, coz thats way highschool, i dont wanna live in that drama anymore, yknow? im just trying to be happy now, so i dont give a damn what happened.. yes, is it true? am i growing up? haha i gez i am.. although i still am a spoiled brat.

i love you my baby!!!

...enuf, gossip.

things are lookin up

so....its been a while. God, life has just been so damn hectic. i dont even have time to sleep. but in a way, i love the hectic-ness (such a word?!) of it all, nothing like hardwork to make you forget all the probz right?

so, i met a cutie recently... haha.... i aint gon dish details coz i dont wanna jinx it.. this might be a good think yknow... (if YOU ARE readin this, then....) yes, the CUTIE IS YOU haha. no, not you, you ugly freak! i said THE CUTE ONE!!!

anyway, i gotta go get back to my life now. later...

i just came from torturing indayog aspirants... haha. its this thing we do before they start their training.. we let them do stuff and scare the shyt out of them, kind of let out any bad feelings some people may have against them so we can start on a clean slate...

batch 10-iyakin. grabe, ang raming umiyak. haha. kids these days, theyre in way over theyre heads.... dont take life too seriously you guys. lifes full of shyt, and its gonna be more shitty if you dont know how to laugh it off.. look at me, all the problems in the world but here i am, still smiling. i often say, "im stuck in this great life, but still I WANNA BREAK OUT!"... but thats another story...

i am so happy there were more people added to our indayog family. seriously, everytime i think about it, i am overwhelmed at how much i love indayog. its an effin family man! i dont know how it got that way, coz i heard they werent always this close.. but now, it feels so good to have these people as friends. maybe coz nobody expects anything of you, aside from your responsibilities of course. what i mean is, nobody expects you to be anything other than you...

hay, its funny how life is full of shyt, but sometimes, life throws you something good... so we all gotta hold on to it.

what a night

SAYAW MANILA 2 is finally finished! OMG!.. thank you everyone for watching. i have to say, 2 weeks of no sleeping, hours of training, cramming, panicking, hunger, pressure, and body pains is WORTH IT...

i had 4 dances and only 1 number in between those dances so i was like 3 inches thicker coz i had to wear my costumes over each other.. haha. talk about hot, it was literally hot. haha. it was totally panic backstage. everyone was dressing up in front of everyone, but then again, i gez that is usually the scene backstage.... im so thankful i dint mess up that much. i mean, i knew i wasnt gonna have a perfect show, coz that just aint real. im just thankful i had minimal and neglible mistakes. haha. dinaan sa projection!

i love my family for watchin... and i love my friend for watching. grabe, it means so much to me that you guys watched... the only thing better than dancing with the people you love is dancing for the people you love...

there were some pretty cute guys dancing... the don bosco boys were really cute (assuming they really were boys... tsk tsk) and the all stars is so damn good. i had a crush and my friend was gonna hook us up but i chickened out so i hid from him. haha, he was looking for me, but i made some lame ass excuse coz i was hella shy. haha. daym, wrong move haha! ... anyhu, i gotta catch on my school work coz God knows ive neglected it since the new year started...

oh yeah. the honors list in school was just posted. im so proud to see my name on it.. too bad, i'l never see my name on it again.. at the rate my school work is goin.. oh well..

this has been one long week... i just got home from the first week back in school, and let me tell you its not fun! argh! I HATE THIS SEM! i hate my profs. this sem is no good! glad i got that out...

anyway, i have been training nonstop for SAYAW MANILA 2: THE MOVIE which all of you should watch. we got one week to go! im a mixture of excitement and nerves! im so happy that we finnaly were able to go thru a clean run of our routine kanina. yes, we just finished choreographing our routine. so we will we polishing next week.

im really scared. i so want this event to be a success. i have devoted so much time and enegy on this. and this is what i really love to do, its what we have all been working hard for. and this is the highlight of our year. GOd, please, make this a good one.

so.. for y'all who dont know the details of my show.. here it is...
SAYAW MANILA 2: THE MOVIE (all the numbers have movie themes) will be held on JAN 14, SATURDAY AT the Philamlife auditorium, U.N. Avenue. gates open at 5pm, program proper starts at 6pm (promise, haba ng pila) other colleges from UP MANILA are dancing too. and our special guests are UP DILIMAN STREET DANCE CLUB (theyre so effin good) MIRIAM, MAPUA, and DON BOSCO. and our special-est guest is the ALL STARS DANCE GROUP..they just happen to be the Philz' representative in the world hip-hop championships and they won 6th place! if that aint enough, there are some very cute guys in that group.. haha.

.. knock on wood but i think i work well under pressure... yeah, that must be the explanation back in higschool when i always get my highest grades during the cheering season...

anyhu, we went shopping for my sis' prom gown today. yes, im reliving the stress of looking for prom dresses. we decided to just buy it coz its really a hassle to have it custom made plus its gonna cost us the same anyway. so, my sis bought one and i swear its to die for. she looks really pretty in it. awww, my sis is all grown up. shes gonna look so daym hot. and it aint nothin like those cheesy dresses, its all elegant! heres a funny story... we were in rustan's and my sis was fitting this dress and we were like buy it na, its so nice. she was just like, yeah its nice. she was kinda hesitant and all... and then my mom was like let your ate try so you can see how pretty it is.. so i did. and my sis was like, yeah sige lets buy it! haha. yeah, alright!

hello 2006

woah! a whole year just went by without me knowing. yes, thats how much it sucked. i dont mean to sound ungrateful but it pretty much was a blur. it was pretty much the same thing every single day. i miss the feeling of looking forward to something yknow? i want to feel excited again. i want the whole hoopla, the sleepless nights, the cant eat shyt, the i-gotta-look-for-an-outfit thing. awwww, i miss that so damn much. im tired of feeling the fxcking thing everyday. so, i welcom 2006 with arms wide open, and i pray to God that he's gonna give me a helluva year!

but im so grateful to the people who have gotten me through the year... my U.P. friends, my INDAYOG FAMILY, and my C.S.A FRIENDS. i love you guys so DAMN much.

so, goodbye to 2005 and hello 2006, i wish with all my heart that this one's great!