i just got home from a fun night at eurics house. it was his parent's anniv and their house blessing. kami pa, we always find excuses to drink haha, pati house blessing pinatulan amp! haha. well, it was real fun, i just have to say, we suck at karaoke!

i really thought that my mom wouldnt allow me to go since we also got this big ass party here at home, so i asked my friends to go inside so she couldnt say no na, plus i asked her during panic time, para di na siya nakapag-isip haha.

gosh, its new year na! i dont feel it. whats wrong with me? its like i dont feel nuthin no more. i didnt feel christmas and now new year? is this how it is when you get old, some things just naturally arent that special anymore? oh, crud. i wish i wish i wish with all my heart that 2006 is a better year. 2005 wasnt that much. its was fine, nothing great. i want to have a year when its all great its not even funny anymore. yknow what i mean??

i finally finished sophie's world thank god!! now, i have to read a study case on manila prince hoter. sucks. but you gotta do what you gotta do....

happy new year everyone!!! dont make new year resolutions anymore, they neva come tru!

sophie's effin world!

this book im reading for school really sucks!!! its SOPHIE'S WORLD. and its the hardest effin book i have had to read!!! it has taken me more than a week and im barely more than half!!! it is so boring! so right now, im in panic mode coz i need to write a paper by jan 2. yes, its awful, school starts and jan 2 na! so much to do...

i just got back from mae mae's house. so fun just to chill. all i can say is I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!! ciao

these days

tonight caps off 3 days straight of partying...

1st day was my BIRTHDAY! i loved it!! its seriously the coolest party, as in, you cant imagine!... haha, stories of that night will be told more efficiently by word of mouth. and i loved everybody who came, seriously, it was intimate, just us. thank you mom, for making the night so, uhhhmmm, interesting. I AM OFFICIALY AND IRREVOCABLY 19!

2nd day. 4D REUNION... i wasnt really planning to go but its a good thing i did. it turned out to be really really fun. thank you aids, you know for what. and millard, haha, man you were so wasted. keep that up!

3rd day. DINNER AT MATT'S. its the first of what would be an annual christmas dinners. the food was heaven and the company was even better. i am just so damn lucky to have friends like you guys, i swurr!

MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone! i really dont feel it yet. im still waiting for it to bang me on the head, but i guess you have to just go with the christmas spirit even if it aint there. imagine, this day is what you have been waiting for the whole year and it goes by just like that. *snap*... so for all you guys, i wish all the love this merry season of christmas!!

today is the day

today is my BIRTHDAY!.... waaaaah! im nineteen!! i gotta go, coz im prepping for my party...

its lookin up

something good happened.. i dont wanna jinx it. i just hope im not stupid enough to not recongnize a good thing when it comes to me... im kinda scared, ok not really scared but apprehensive about the whole thing. im just not used to 'really good guys', yknow? coz there sure aint a lot of them lately... not that all the guys i know are jerks but they sure as hell aint that good. oh, joy... i think that i should just revel in the good things that are thrown my way. and not wish for sumn else.. yeah, thats what im gonna do. and if doesnt work out.. at least i got a new friend. sigh.

hey! my birthdays comin up!.. im turning 19! daym. i just wanna spend it with my fam and my closest friends. so, i hope you guys show up, aight?! merry xmas everyone, have the best one ever! muchoz.

i met some hotties

fckin embarassing man! we danced kalipay in front of tons people and i screwed up big time! seriously, i was like, wait, how come im facing front while the others werent? oh shiet! But it was all good, since nahabol pa naman. so it was a good one for indayog. well, except for my big boo boo.

oh man, i have just seen the hottest guys on earth. i still cant get over it. yknow the philz is like the 6th place in the world hip hop championships (or sumn like that) right? one of them is our choreographer. so invited us to watch them in Rob. oh fck. they were soooo goood. as in, there are no words. i seriously thought i danced pretty well, but after i saw them i realized i dont know shyt... Reagan (our choreo) introduced us to his group mates. lawrence is so hot. he's chinito, and he dances so well. and Jong, he's even hotter. he looks like justin timberlake, wlang stir. grabe!!! ayayayayay, im star struck!

oh yeah, SCHOOL SUCKS! Good things its over. i hate it!

shiver

its cold and im shivering.

im in need of warmth.

but i wont find it in your arms coz someone else

has taken my place...

effin painful...

im gonna get mine someday.

and when i do, its gonna be helluh good.

life is screwed up, so you gotta screw it back.

dilemma

what do you do when a guy tells you he wants to kiss you?...

and he's drunk.... you know how they say that when theyre drunk what they say is true coz theyve

lost their inhibitions. so is that true??

i guess the answer to the first question would be you kiss him if you like him...

but what if you dont? not that way at least. (i dont)

uhhh! i really cant force myself to like someone. but when i love someone,

i just do.

its cold

its christmas.it dont feel like it.
...awwww

so, i dont have gifts for my family yet.. for my friends meron na... sobrang last day shopping panic kaya for the fam. kasi naman, sobrang hectic na... i gotz so much to do.

people, people, watch our dance concert on JAN. 14 k? its gon be at Philam life, UN. Ave. were barely starting the preparations now. the word being barely. for my batch, were gonna have a production number. and we only got 4 8s so far. gosh. and we still dont got our costumes designed and our music mixed. help,i desperately need help!

awww... so sad, i dont have a boy this christmas....uhhhh!! haha. nah, its all good. i have my friends.. haha. yes, yes, micha tell yourself that.

oh yea. so effin stressed. my birthdays cumin up and i still have no plans. hay, im gonna end up not doin anything.. and i think thats just so freakin pathetic. yknow? coz bdays suck when ur older, its just but another ordinary day... so i feel like i have to do something, go out at least.

thats it so far. merry christmas peeps. i hope you guys have a good one. muchozmahalz.

the layout

I gotz a new layout...aint it cute??