i just came from torturing indayog aspirants... haha. its this thing we do before they start their training.. we let them do stuff and scare the shyt out of them, kind of let out any bad feelings some people may have against them so we can start on a clean slate...

batch 10-iyakin. grabe, ang raming umiyak. haha. kids these days, theyre in way over theyre heads.... dont take life too seriously you guys. lifes full of shyt, and its gonna be more shitty if you dont know how to laugh it off.. look at me, all the problems in the world but here i am, still smiling. i often say, "im stuck in this great life, but still I WANNA BREAK OUT!"... but thats another story...

i am so happy there were more people added to our indayog family. seriously, everytime i think about it, i am overwhelmed at how much i love indayog. its an effin family man! i dont know how it got that way, coz i heard they werent always this close.. but now, it feels so good to have these people as friends. maybe coz nobody expects anything of you, aside from your responsibilities of course. what i mean is, nobody expects you to be anything other than you...

hay, its funny how life is full of shyt, but sometimes, life throws you something good... so we all gotta hold on to it.

what a night

SAYAW MANILA 2 is finally finished! OMG!.. thank you everyone for watching. i have to say, 2 weeks of no sleeping, hours of training, cramming, panicking, hunger, pressure, and body pains is WORTH IT...

i had 4 dances and only 1 number in between those dances so i was like 3 inches thicker coz i had to wear my costumes over each other.. haha. talk about hot, it was literally hot. haha. it was totally panic backstage. everyone was dressing up in front of everyone, but then again, i gez that is usually the scene backstage.... im so thankful i dint mess up that much. i mean, i knew i wasnt gonna have a perfect show, coz that just aint real. im just thankful i had minimal and neglible mistakes. haha. dinaan sa projection!

i love my family for watchin... and i love my friend for watching. grabe, it means so much to me that you guys watched... the only thing better than dancing with the people you love is dancing for the people you love...

there were some pretty cute guys dancing... the don bosco boys were really cute (assuming they really were boys... tsk tsk) and the all stars is so damn good. i had a crush and my friend was gonna hook us up but i chickened out so i hid from him. haha, he was looking for me, but i made some lame ass excuse coz i was hella shy. haha. daym, wrong move haha! ... anyhu, i gotta catch on my school work coz God knows ive neglected it since the new year started...

oh yeah. the honors list in school was just posted. im so proud to see my name on it.. too bad, i'l never see my name on it again.. at the rate my school work is goin.. oh well..

this has been one long week... i just got home from the first week back in school, and let me tell you its not fun! argh! I HATE THIS SEM! i hate my profs. this sem is no good! glad i got that out...

anyway, i have been training nonstop for SAYAW MANILA 2: THE MOVIE which all of you should watch. we got one week to go! im a mixture of excitement and nerves! im so happy that we finnaly were able to go thru a clean run of our routine kanina. yes, we just finished choreographing our routine. so we will we polishing next week.

im really scared. i so want this event to be a success. i have devoted so much time and enegy on this. and this is what i really love to do, its what we have all been working hard for. and this is the highlight of our year. GOd, please, make this a good one.

so.. for y'all who dont know the details of my show.. here it is...
SAYAW MANILA 2: THE MOVIE (all the numbers have movie themes) will be held on JAN 14, SATURDAY AT the Philamlife auditorium, U.N. Avenue. gates open at 5pm, program proper starts at 6pm (promise, haba ng pila) other colleges from UP MANILA are dancing too. and our special guests are UP DILIMAN STREET DANCE CLUB (theyre so effin good) MIRIAM, MAPUA, and DON BOSCO. and our special-est guest is the ALL STARS DANCE GROUP..they just happen to be the Philz' representative in the world hip-hop championships and they won 6th place! if that aint enough, there are some very cute guys in that group.. haha.

.. knock on wood but i think i work well under pressure... yeah, that must be the explanation back in higschool when i always get my highest grades during the cheering season...

anyhu, we went shopping for my sis' prom gown today. yes, im reliving the stress of looking for prom dresses. we decided to just buy it coz its really a hassle to have it custom made plus its gonna cost us the same anyway. so, my sis bought one and i swear its to die for. she looks really pretty in it. awww, my sis is all grown up. shes gonna look so daym hot. and it aint nothin like those cheesy dresses, its all elegant! heres a funny story... we were in rustan's and my sis was fitting this dress and we were like buy it na, its so nice. she was just like, yeah its nice. she was kinda hesitant and all... and then my mom was like let your ate try so you can see how pretty it is.. so i did. and my sis was like, yeah sige lets buy it! haha. yeah, alright!

hello 2006

woah! a whole year just went by without me knowing. yes, thats how much it sucked. i dont mean to sound ungrateful but it pretty much was a blur. it was pretty much the same thing every single day. i miss the feeling of looking forward to something yknow? i want to feel excited again. i want the whole hoopla, the sleepless nights, the cant eat shyt, the i-gotta-look-for-an-outfit thing. awwww, i miss that so damn much. im tired of feeling the fxcking thing everyday. so, i welcom 2006 with arms wide open, and i pray to God that he's gonna give me a helluva year!

but im so grateful to the people who have gotten me through the year... my U.P. friends, my INDAYOG FAMILY, and my C.S.A FRIENDS. i love you guys so DAMN much.

so, goodbye to 2005 and hello 2006, i wish with all my heart that this one's great!